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MeTooo

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  1. I'm glad You're here:). Carolyn
  2. I totally agree with what other people at AS have said. I also wanted to say that your introduction was not at all rubbish. It is perfect. I always think I don't make sense, but then everyone gets me here. You are okay to feel anyway you feel, even if it's not okay. Like it's been said. It's okay not to feel okay. We have all been there or are there, or like me, seem to jump back and forth. I hope you get the support you are seeking here at AS that is kindly and freely given. (((Hugs))) and love from me. Carolyn
  3. I am a survivor who often feels the same as you. AS has helped me in a ways I never imagined, like I never realized that making connections with other survivors is an important piece in my own recovery puzzle. You are not alone with all of this. At AS I have found genuine support, I feel safe, and get to borrow hope and experience, from really caring survivors. (((Hugs))), Carolyn
  4. You are one strong woman. I love that you yelled at your therapist, and that you worked it out. That's trust. I just had a fight with my therapist too because I didn't feel like she was taking me seriously about all the pain I felt. We worked it out too. Anyway, I love all your visual descriptions of how you feel. I'm no Professional, but I support and honor how you feel now. It's real, it's a process, and you are not alone. Keep telling your truth, keep swearing and keep letting that anger out! (I see relief in your future). I'm sending You lots of love and hugs. Carolyn.
  5. Welcome, to the group:) I am so sorry for what brought you here, but I'm glad You're here. I felt the same way about joining an online group. I have not been on the site long, but my experience at AS is that it is safe, respectful, kind, responsive, and understanding. Although I have wonderful professional support, I personally needed to connect with other survivors. I really related to your post. I have a lot in common with you. 1. I was also r:(::(:( when I was 18, a week before I went off to college, during a family vacation to the beach. I never told anyone at the time
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    Thank you all for your encouragement, and caring help. It is hard, but AS feels like I just crawled into a pillow fort of support. Please feel free to fling kindness in my direction at any time. I think I'm gonna need it. Carolyn
  7. I am so sorry I have not replied sooner, especially since your quick response was really important to me. It made me feel welcomed To AS, when I was not sure I wanted to participate. Thank you for making me feel not alone. I related a lot to what you said and I appreciate your kindness. I am always open to listening and help, and dialogue. Carolyn
  8. So somehow I posted this as a reply to myself instead of to you.... I really resonate with how you trust and follow your intuition. I admire the confidence you have in yourself. I'm glad you told your story on my post. I can see and appreciate how you balance trusting your intuition and getting help. That is no small feat. You seem to have made the transition from Victim to Survivor. I really want that. Really believeing that it was not my fault and placing the blame where it actually belongs has been big for me and was what started me to take action. (Stanford
  9. Hello, and sorry for the big time gap in my reply to you. Thank you for identifying with me by sharing a piece of your story. I'm finding out what a relief it is to be understood and to know that I am not alone. I definitely did not make a choice to deal with this now, but when I realize that emotionally I need to deal with something, I know I just have to get all the help I can, and go with it. I have a therapist and psychiatrist I see regularly, as well as a breathwork and energy healer, but like you, it has brought up other stuff and also the feelings I repressed for so long. Som
  10. Thank you so much for your support and your welcome. Feeling like I'm understood Is so important to me. Dogs have always been important to my life too:). They always loved me unconditionally and made me feel safe. As a child, I wished I was raised by dogs. I like what you said about brains. I do trust the natural process of readiness, even though I don't always like how it feels and I'm not sure where it's taking me...lets keep in touch. Carolyn
  11. I really resonate with how you trust and follow your intuition. I admire the confidence you have in yourself. I'm glad you told your story on my post. I can see and appreciate how you balance trusting your intuition and getting help. That is no small feat. You seem to have made the transition from Victim to Survivor. I really want that. Really believeing that it was not my fault and placing the blame where it actually belongs has been big for me and was what started me to take action. (Stanford helped me see this) So, then I called a ra:(e hotline for the first time to
  12. Thank you for your insight. I will ponder that. I always remembered I was raped, I just blocked out the feelings. I have been thinking about it more and I thought about 2 other reasons. The first is I talked with my niece last summer befor she went to her first year of college and told her what had happened to me. I wanted her to know that rape was real, and that she knows someone who it happened to and IF something happened to her, she could talk to me because I would understand it was not her fault, and not shame her and help her in any way she chose. I told her all of that not to scar
  13. Thank you for your kind support, my eyes are welling up especially because you have taken the time to respond and send me hope while you are still counting the hours of your rape. I will get strength from you and you can get strength from me. I've been in counseling for decades, and that shows you how deeply and carefully I burried it. I decided it was my fault and that was the end....until now. The thing about burried feelings is they are always burried alive. You are wonderful. Signin or Carolyn
  14. Thank you for your wonderful welcome.  I feel kind of lost, but glad to be here.  C

  15. I'm new. I'm a Capricorn and I like dogs.
  16. So I said I don't understand how this site works.I've read the rules but my brain I guess is not understanding how to participate in this site.I really need help and connection and I get into the Acton and I get into the women's section. I may need a little hand holding by a monitor or a moderator or what ever you call yourselves. Please help me so I can use this site.I don't have any faith that anyone will respond.I tried to find out how to contact someone in charge and I can't figure it out.if anyone sees this is help me. Thank you
  17. Hello, I am new to this group. This is my first post. I was raped 29 years ago at the age of 18. I delt with it by blaming myself for getting drunk. (Now, I know that's not true, he is the one who took from me what I did not give. He is to blame.) I never reported it, never told my parents. For reasons I can't explain, it's coming up and out now. I am feeling the pain, fear, and panic of my 18 year old self, NOW. The nice people at rape call centers didn't know what to do to help me. I am having trouble finding people like me. Who understand how and why I was able to keep all t
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