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I am so sorry for all that you have gone through. None of that was your fault at all--it doesn't matter if you were drinking or not. It does not make what happened to you your fault at all. You did not ask to be hurt in any way, shape, or form at all. We all believe you here.
I kept one of my cases of sexual assault a secret for over a decade now, so it is not a shock to me that you've kept your case of sexual assault hidden for so long now. It can be difficult to open up about any of these things. AfterSilence has been helping me open up about my experiences. I hope