I am a 21 year old female from the US. I have been coping, or at least trying to cope, with the trauma of being sexually abused by my ex boyfriend for the past two years. The past two years have been a roller coaster. After I finally got out of that relationship I found myself completely encompassed by anxiety, depression, and isolation. I feel like I have spent the past two years trying to forget everything that happened and moved past it but I have found that the more I push it down with medication and self-distraction, the more I crumble when I get any time alone with myself. There is no one, except my therapist really, I can talk to and every time I try to say anything out loud I completely shut down and have a panic attack. I just want to feel normal again, make friends, and join a community of people who I don't have to pretend around. Thank you all so much for being so accepting.