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You are worth it blt reject those self criticizing thoughts it's just the messages the abusers reinforced. I struggle with negative self talk too. Sitting with you, if okay

I understand this feeling quite well. Safe hugs

Thanks for the hugs, unfortunately my day sucked  Those hugs were needed

 Thank you @snmls   I just feel extremely disappointed in myself. I mean things I did as a kid still replay over in my head...silly stupid things. Like I was over at my crushes house when I was a kid. His mom told me I needed to eat. I didn't and was hungry later and his younger brother and I we got a bag of chips down and were munching on them and she came in and snatched the bag away and we got scolded. I feel like maybe I should be able to laugh about it now, but I can't even now I feel humiliated over it and the look in her eye  so when I really screw things up

@Rapha @snmls Thank you for your kindness. I've done some things I regret and hurt someone I care about and I just feel absolutely devastated. I've made some poor choices and I feel like such a crappy person.

Anytime and thank you, I appreciate that, same goes for you too.

Hope you are enjoying  Thanks for reminding me I have a pizza waiting for me in the freezer to cook! It's not delivery, It's Digiorno ;)

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*her mouth drops wide open while exclaiming "My god! your like the guy version of me!" Seriously! Wow! It's like you just put into words exactly why I am in this depression.

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I try to be positive, I go out of my way to be energetic and friendly here because helping others makes me feel better myself, but tonight it's not happening. I'm so lonely in my life, I'm constantly ignored

I can relate to this sooo much! I've been in this depression now for 2 months or so. I use to be the positive, bubbly, cheerful one in chat, trying to be the chat comedian/ humor relief. Now I'm just spiraling down into a deep depression. I hope I can pull through. Sitting by you in understanding, if ok. I'm sorry for the reason that brings you here. I support your healing 100%

I just want you to know I sit with you wondering the same thing about myself. I understand and relate to the pain you are feeling. I feel crushed and broken weighed down by the insanity CSA has caused. I'm sitting with you in support. I'm thinking of you dear friend.

So precious! Sorry the pregnancy was long and stressful. Congrats on your little bundle of joy!  

Amen!  

I know what that feels like Rapha, my dad does the same to me. (((safe gentle hugs))) if ok. And you should know I am not laughing at you, I am smiling because you are on the road to recovery  Your father should be ashamed of how he has treated you! You are a kind and decent human being and I am most happy and honored to have met you! Maybe I will be so lucky as to meet you in person and shake your hand and give you a hug. Anyone who laughs at you should hand their head in shame. You can not help your circumstances, it's not a laughing matter and one day God will cure you as he promises here.

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Isaiah 35:4-6

Say to those who are anxious at heart:“Be strong. Do not be afraid.Look! Your own God will come with vengeance,God will come with retribution.+He will come and save you.”+  ⁵  At that time the eyes of the blind will be opened,+And the ears of the deaf will be unstopped.+  ⁶  At that time the lame will leap like the deer,+And the tongue of the speechless will shout for joy.+For waters will burst forth in the wilderness,And streams in the desert plain

I look forward to this day very much! It will be here sooner then you think. For God has promised these things and God can not lie as mentioned here in Numbers  

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Numbers 23:19 God is not a mere man who tells lies,+Nor a son of man who changes his mind.*+When he says something, will he not do it?When he speaks, will he not carry it out?+

God did not cause your pain and disabilities Rapha! You know how I know . Just read below! Take heart dear friend, I hope this brings you much needed comfort. I hear your cries of pain and so does God and he will rescue you! You just wait and see!

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Job 34:10-12 So listen to me, you men of understanding:*It is unthinkable for the true God to act wickedly,+For the Almighty to do wrong!+ ¹¹  For he will reward a man according to what he does+And bring upon him the consequences of his ways. ¹²  For a certainty, God does not act wickedly;+The Almighty does not pervert justice.+

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James 1:12

¹²  Happy is the man who keeps on enduring trial,+ because on becoming approved he will receive the crown of life,+ which Jehovah* promised to those who continue loving Him.+ ¹³  When under trial, let no one say: “I am being tried by God.” For with evil things God cannot be tried, nor does he himself try anyone.

 

What!?!?! That is an invasion of privacy. Oh Rapha, I'm so sorry  

I think just chat and private messages are. I decided I wanted to join because of a post I read before I became a member.

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I'm so sorry Rapha ((safe gentle hugs)) I know that no words I say can take away your pain. Just know you have a listening ear if you feel like you can talk. Take good gentle care of yourself, my friend. May the peace of God that excels all thought give you peace of mind and comfort. Don't forget he is near to those broken and heart and those crushed in spirit he saves.

I'm so sorry Rapha (((((gentle safe hugs))))) Please feel free to talk in chat. I want to be there for you. I will never turn a deaf ear.

As a friend once said to me, "I feel your pain inside my heart". (((safe gentle hugs))) if ok.