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missfrier

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  1. Anxious nervous I git councilling today 1st ttime since beginning @f december

  2. Been mixture of emotions today been. Anxious about today. Paincked. Had good day thend learnt of really good friend I had know 20 years had. Pabased away

    1. snmls

      snmls

      I'm so sorry for your loss 

    2. Hawkgirl

      Hawkgirl

      Oh no.  I am so sorry for your loss.  Sending you safe hugs.:hug:

    3. missfrier

      missfrier

      thank you      

      she was older than me btu we met in hospital when broher got run over and her son was tere for mengitus she also elped me trou when my special nan grandad died

      even thog we moved away we kept in touch and s ee her few time when i went to see family

                                                            

  3. feelign really nervous and anxious today im driving  on the motoway  i havent  done  it in  7 years 

    1. Hawkgirl

      Hawkgirl

       I am sitting with you.  I am cheering you on too.   You can do it!

  4. has  wok  up feeling really  anxious  today

    1. 8888

      8888

      Me too.  Sitting with you, if okay.

    2. missfrier
    3. 8888

      8888

      No problem!

  5. really hate school run after    holidays had my son brad sobbign  for 2  hours as he dont want to  go back tuesday

  6. I'm sorry. 

    1. missfrier

      missfrier

      thank you  means a lot once I have  rountine  back next  week hoping  it will  help 

    2. Hawkgirl

      Hawkgirl

      No worries.  I understand.  I am sitting with you.  Sending a dancing puppy.  Hope it will make you smile. :lindybear: 

    3. missfrier
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  7. the last few years have so hard from losign my grandad and also special grandparents to finding out my niece had cancer and my niece passing then this last year has been hard so many emotions feelings going on trying to deal with it all and my past talking about abuse and tryign to deal with it i am tired of it all and feelings feeling lost and needing to find who i am if it was bradley really dont no where i would be he is amazing love him with all my heart i really want next year to be better but im not sure it will be just yet as i need to work through things . and want to forget it but not sure i can . im sorry every one if this isnt ok please delte

    1. MeBeMary

      MeBeMary

      Anything you ever write is OK. You are among friends, you never need to apologize. :hug:

      It's been a tough year for you, I know. Sometimes things feel hopeless, I feel that way sometimes, too. We think about the many things we need to overcome, over not just the next year, but beyond.

      Have you ever seen my signature or my cover photo? It says "just keep moving forward, one day at a time". We may stumble and we may fall, but as long as we get up and keep moving and try, the possibility is there for things to get better. If we stop moving and stop fighting, there is no possibility anything will be better. You are a fighter. Be patient with yourself and you will see that in yourself, as I do, and better days will come. 

      Wishing ever day is a new year's day for you. :hug: 

    2. missfrier
  8. Is feeling lost. And don't feel fit. In in places.  Stupid nightmares scary dreams. 

    1. MeBeMary

      MeBeMary

      So sorry the nightmares don't be seem to be giving you a break. :hug:  if ok.

    2. missfrier

      missfrier

      ty this was odd I don't understand it but was frightening to

  9. i am strong because i have to be strong , but wonders who will hold her up when shes down.

    1. Hawkgirl

      Hawkgirl

      In your corner, Missfrier.  Sending safe hugs to you. :hug:

  10. really  not feeling  it today 

    1. missfrier

      missfrier

      thank  youim just realy  tired christmas  hard  

    2. Panther

      Panther

      yeah, I feel the same way too. I told my parents what needed to be said and didn't get any presents from them I don't think. I'm just ready for the winter break to be over.

    3. missfrier

      missfrier

      im  sorry big hugs  im hwere   if u need   to  talk 

       

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  11. is feeling  more  calmer thank you to wishinuponstar     thank  you 

    1. Panther

      Panther

      How are you feeling now?

    2. missfrier

      missfrier

      Thank you I am doing better. Think as we are on holiday it throws me as I really need routine to keep me focused. If that makes Spence wishin. Was there and. Had supported me 

  12. time try  to try think  postiive  again 

  13. confused feelin gs

  14. Arggghhhhhhhh stupid nightmares and flash backs go away

    1. missfrier

      missfrier

      thank you  @Hawkgirl how ru doing

       

    2. Hawkgirl

      Hawkgirl

      Doing ok.  Not sleeping at night.  So I catch up on late night tv. :-)

    3. missfrier

      missfrier

      Aww big hugs I don't sleep eng I do end up having nightmare or  CNN nit sleep

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  15. Hi  how is every one doing I am having better few days also so proud of my little man  there was story on fb  about little boy with ccancer and his last wish is receive 1000 Christmas cards he come Home  from school asking about little  boy as girl in sschool had mentioned it I said that he cn do card   he Said he wwanted send  present to unfortunately I don't ha've money or he could so he said we'll I Will give vim somatching nicertainly of his and has chosen book for his parents to read to him 

    1. snmls

      snmls

      Glad you're feeling better :)

  16. IM SORRY

    1. missfrier

      missfrier

      ty   dr  gave  me  antidepressents at night     but I not taken any because my partner and  his family  don't  agree with them and say I don't no need  them when  I self  hamred  on  Friday I  had  tried all week to get  to see  dr  I trust  enough   to  but she  had  no appointments  I have  music on  at night  nights  leave on  when I'm sleep my  partner  turns   off  I don't  sleep   I have  2-4  hrs  if I'm lucky  thank u for ur  support

       

    2. Hawkgirl

      Hawkgirl

      Wow Missfrier, that is difficult.  I was thinking it could be one of the meds as strange dreams can occur as a result.  Never know all the stuff the meds do either.  But that is another story for another day.  Do you drink herbal tea?  Perhaps some chamomile would be of some help to you.  I think sometimes the nightmares have to do with what one is thinking about prior to going to sleep;. Sometimes the nightmares can sneak up on us too.  I am in your corner.  

    3. missfrier

      missfrier

      I'm not  on   any  I  don't drink any herbal  tea   I don't  drink  normal tea  if  it  is  made  by its  is horrible  I have  warm milky drink before   thank you   I have  phenegran but I  don't takem as they don't help me to sleep

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  17. im usless   doubting  my self  all time  just now  my last counciling  tomorrow   un  less she  ableto get me  more  untill  i here  ihear  specialise  counciling   ive  wrote  down  how i feel to gve  my  councilor but im not sure if  ic an  because i put  on there  about hurtign  my self

    1. missfrier

      missfrier

      Thank you hAwkgirls I'm not strong

    2. Hawkgirl

      Hawkgirl

      Missfrier, you are strong. You keep going.  You keep fighting.  You don't quit and you face each challenge.  That is the very definition of strength.  Sometimes things get overwhelming. Things get difficult.  Sometimes it looks better to quit than it does to keep going.  But when it looks better to quit than to keep going it is a trick.  I believe abuse is designed to destroy a person.  It is designed to keep them from reaching what they were went to be. The more I look at my life, I can see how it. Every day you fight back.  Every day you let them know they didn't win.  Every day you show they don't get to win.  You are stronger than you know.  It just hurts a lot right now.  It will not hurt the way it does always.  Hang in there please.  Sitting with you.  :candle::candle::candle:

    3. missfrier

      missfrier

      Thank you  it hard and I'm really aanxious today tired to  I don't want be like this  I'm trying fight how I feel not let people swe the real me  and  my feelings  

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  18. i just want  to be  normal i want  feel normal    i dont want  to be   me   i want to be  someoen else i  know it  stupid  :tear:

    1. Precious Queen

      Precious Queen

      You are normal. It's just that you have to cope with abnormal events. Not everyone goes through this stuff.

    2. Painnbroken
  19. I hide the pain inside and walk around with a smile on my face pretending to be okay, when I honestly just want to break down in tears

    1. missfrier
    2. MeBeMary

      MeBeMary

      I do that all the time. It's hard, I know. :hug: if ok.

    3. missfrier
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    • feels  like  fighting  a losing battle    just now:cry:
    1. Kris78

      Kris78

      I'm sorry miss:hug:

    2. missfrier

      missfrier

      Ty it was bad day  Yesturday but trying have better  obe today even if I did go work wwith trtrousers inside out

  20. argh   i been so  anxious  since  councilling and have   been clawing at my hand  i not  felt as bad   as this  for  while  now thgohut i was ok and  feeling better  i  dont  know if it is because im feeling scared  as  i  only have 2 more session and  the  specialised counciling there  waiting  list    i  feel  if i start  open  up  it time  to say bye  i    i know it  silly

     

  21. That was so hard today feeling like I go backwards 

  22. Feeling really Fed up now  Bradley my son has been really poorly to top it off my partner went down with tummy bug Satmidday Bradley on Monday and now I got it I Fed up with illness  Bradley still not  I'm tired worn out from it I sti'll h've to look after  Bradley  he no problem want some  obe to look after me  I not nest patient as hate being fussed  

  23. feeling really guilty and  bad :(

  24. This time 2years ago it this weekend Was one of the worst Times ever I  had traveled to  to  my say my final bye to my 2year old niece I Sat on coach on way down to funeral  in front of 2ladies  I have nothing wrong with religion beliefs culture  it people's own choice but thsee two ladies  we're Sat there talking about God  how great he Was  all I wanted to say Was we'll he can't be that great can he as the world we live in not great he taken my niece   but I couldn't say anything I wanted to say if he so great y he take my niece why she  we innocent  she did nothin wrong  in her short precious life why not take bad people pit them through every thing she vs to go through   it been really hard when the fire work we're going off all I could think about was niece she would loved all bright colours   sorry if I upset any one  please delete it if it doea

    1. MeBeMary

      MeBeMary

      :hug: I'm sorry about your niece. I know you miss her very much. :console: 

    2. missfrier
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