What questions do you wish you could answer to yourself about your rape? in Resurrection? A blog by JustSam in General Posted July 20, 2017 @JustSam Thank you for writing this. When I first read this I thought about everything I had been through. I knew what they did was deliberate. It wasn't anything they accidentally did and it wasn't a bunch of child's play. I think the thing I think about the most is what would my life had been like had I not gone through that. I had held on to dreams of marriage and family and even after being proposed to I turned the guy down. In retrospect, my family should have been there. My mother should have thought for herself and not listened to her often drunken and high husband. I wonder what I would have been like. I know what I am like now. I see where I have grown. I see where I still need to grow.