Hawkgirl

I have been planning for quite sometime on writing a book. Well I have been thinking about intensely for years. Yet I finally started working on it yesterday. It feels like the time is right. This feels like what I am supposed to be doing right now. It is so hard to believe but the story, my story is finally coming together. I am facing with without the fear of previous attempts. I am facing it without the fear of backlash. I am facing it for the giant it is in my life. I am slaying it for the hell it has given me. I look at the pain I have been in for so long. I look at it, with

You are moving forward. There are times when in the healing process that this is all that comes to mind. I think of it like a kid telling an adult, this happened. You have courage. You have strength but truth be told, some of this is hard to read. Some of it brings up memories and emotions that are just hard to deal with. There is a pain that is hard to put into words. It is hard to put those into words because there is an ache that doesn't just go away. When the thought hits,, please be good to yourself. I think it is hard to be good to yourself when you think you are responsible i

You are welcome. You can also do the online chat at RAINN's website. You can do chat with one of the RAINN volunteers. I can understand being afraid to go to there. I had to work up the nerve to email the center that offered counseling. I have never made it in for my intake. I had to schedule that but there are some extenuating circumstances that brought about. When things slow again, I will probably look into again. You are brave. Sending you safe hugs if ok.

@teaandcoffee Depending on where you are, different r*** crisis centers offer group and individual counseling. These can be free or low cost depending on the center's ability to fund such programs. If you like I can help you research that in whatever country or state you are in. Things are difficult right now. I believe in you and that you will make it through the rough spots too.

@Zoe7 Hi and welcome to AS. I am sorry for what brought you here but I am glad you found us. I want to start out by saying you are not alone. There are times something like this can leave you feeling isolated and alone. You aren't alone. You can heal and it's not your fault.

@MissLioness Hi and welcome to AS. I am sorry for what brought you here. This site might help you. http://dcrcc.org/counseling/no-straight-path/

@mary0331 Hi and welcome to AS. I am sorry for what brought you here but I am glad you found us. I am also sorry your husband is abusive to you and has treated you so poorly. You didn't deserve that. You deserve to be treated with dignity and respect. Do you have any hobbies you like to engage in? Hobbies that get you out of the house? Painting, drawing, writing classes? Some community colleges offer free courses based on age. Some courses are free or low cost based on enrichment. They are designed to for people who aren't going after a degree. Going to a support group is a

Hi Caligirl, Welcome to AS. I hope you are able to find help and healing as you continue on your journey to wholeness.

@Cam Francia Hi and welcome to AS. I am sorry for what brought you here but I am glad you found us. You have really been through something terrible and I can imagine the pain of keeping that secret inside. Abuse sends us all the wrong messages and we have to sort those out in the process. The first thing to learn is you are not alone. There are many people who have been through abusive situations. You asked what do you need to do. Would you believe you already on your way? Yes, you are already engaged in the healing process. Now some people go to support groups both online and I

@Bobbi27 Hi, welcome to AS. I am sorry for what brought you here but I am glad you found us. I am sorry you have felt so isolated when trying to deal with this. That can be difficult and difficult isn't the proper word for it. You can move forward with your life and heal. The healing process is a bit of a journey but it is worth it every step of the way. If you just want to chat, try the chat room. You are not alone and you can heal. I'll walk with you if you like. Keep swinging for the fences.

@howlieowl Hi, welcome to AS. I am sorry for what brought you here but I am glad you found this place. I can understand how group therapy can be intimidating. I can say that it does get easier. When i first started my journey toward healing it involved going to support groups. It is a bit intimidating at first but it is worth it in the end. It starts out where you wonder if your experiences are valid, if no one else tells you, your experiences are just as valid as anyone's.. Abuse is a thing that should never happen. When viewed in light of rather it should happen or not, every exp

@cantstoprunning75 You are not alone. It feels very hard right not but you are not alone. You have people who care about you. Living 10,000 miles away, must be difficult. It sounds like you are on the other side of the world. I have always hated that "everything happens for a reason" statement too. I think people throw it out there in an effort to make sense out things that dont readily make sense. Even when religious people throw that out there, it drives me up the wall. There are some things that just defy that sort of pat explaination. Abuse of any sort hurts. It is hard but

I should research that quote as I had never heard the full quote before you mentioned it here. Thank you for sharing this with me. Yes, I was amazed at how my dad could just adopt people left and right. After he died, it was very clear why he adopted so many people. I have aunts and uncles among people I would not otherwise know.

I try to be positive but even now with things falling every which way, I am forced to view reality. There are people who choose to care about me and people who aren't related to me who care more than my family does. My sisters haven't called me in a very long time. The last time I called them it was a power outage. Even with the transplant being cancelled, they didn't call. I shouldn't be surprised. Actually, I am not surprised. They would have surprised by calling. This got me thinking of how chosen family (people who aren't related to me but really do care) are so important to me. I

@Ljay I am sorry for responding so late to your post. You are brave to speak of your abuse. My stepbrothers abused me as a child. It takes a lot of strength to put your story into words. I am glad you were able to share that part of your life here. I am sorry for all that you experienced. Keep swinging for the fences.

@Tweeter3. If you are referring to this, the @ symbol and the name. You select the name from the list once you start typing the letters. Then the person's name is tagged in whatever post you are doing. I also look for the profile picture if one is available in case someone has more than one with similarities,. I hope this helps.

@Me89 Hi and welcome to AS! I am sorry for what brought you here but I am so glad you found us. Healing is hard but you are already well on the path. It takes courage to admit what happened. Admitting it happened is the major step to healing. . You will find plenty of support here. When you are ready, there is a place to tell your story. Take your time. No pressure to do anything. One of the biggest mistakes I made early on was trying to heal and rushing through it. It's tempting but it is unfair to you. Give yourself time and above all be good to yourself.

@Scarlet_rise Welcome to AS. I am sorry for what brought you here but I am glad you found us. :-). You have nothing to be nervous about. It is entirely fine. No one here will say your experience is "milder". Every experience is valid. When you are ready to tell your story, go for it. One of the things about coming through this sort of thing is sometimes it is a fight. Everyone here at some point learned to keep the secret about what happened. Some learned to down play it. Never think your experience is milder. That's down playing it. The jerk or people who hurt you don't dese

You aren't alone in feeling that way. Sitting with you.

You are priceless. Please don't go. . We are walking this together. Sending you safe hugs if ok.

Hi Lunamoon, Welcome to AS. Try going to RAINN at www.rainn.org. They have a crisis chat. I am sorry you have been through such a terrible experience. If you are outside of the US, i can research some options for you. Hang in there.

Hi Miss Owlish, Welcome to AS. I am sorry it seems like the universe has it out for you. Abuse, no matter when it happened is really hard to deal with sometimes. You aren't alone. There is someone here that can identify with what you have experienced.

Hi Wonder Woman! Nice to have a fellow Justice League member onboard . Hopefully you can get to Themyscira soon. I am sorry that you have experienced trauma too. There are some who have experienced trauma and have gone through the courts. Healing can be a challenge but it is totally worth it. The anxiety is normal as is the depression. So much has changed and one wants nothing more than for things to go back to the way they were. I know from my own experience that going back to normal isn't possible. There is a period of time where mourning takes place as if someone is lost

Hi Chris: Welcome to AS. Glad you are here although I am sorry for the reasons. Healing is possible and you can heal. There is no judgment here and you will find people who know what you have been through. Sending you safe hugs if ok,

Hey and welcome! Your beloved may need to check her spam file. I know when I signed up it didn't appear in my inbox. I had to check spam and do a search for it. I think this may help her find her information. Welcome to AS. The Puppy Dancers.... :-)