I understand to an extent what you're feeling. My attacker was my husbands best friend, and after starting to face these feelings, being around my husband reminds me of him. I have this feeling of wishing I never said anything, keeping it buried, wanting to run away from it, or drown it.
Now that you are starting to get some help, it will get better.
Your husband cares about you, and it sounds like he will be there for you as you go through this process.
Hang in there, I know it's tough. Just as freddy wrote, "Don't let what damaged you in the past damage your life in the present."
Everything will be alright hun