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gorbaby

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  1. I feel like it didn't even happen. That it was my fault. I woke up in the middle of it and just did nothing.

    1. gorbaby

      gorbaby

      I feel that way too. I just froze and he started freaking out at what he did and he came to me for comfort. I gave it to him. I was so paralyzed.

       

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  2. Just one of those low points where I'm feeling upset. Maybe I'm just tired I don't really know what is wrong. Just something feels off and I can't put my finger on it. 

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      gorbaby

      Thanks MeBeMary, just nervous to have another nightmare

       

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  3. Just one of those low points where I'm feeling upset. Maybe I'm just tired I don't really know what is wrong. Just something feels off and I can't put my finger on it. 

    1. gorbaby

      gorbaby

      Ended up having a nightmare about being assaulted again. It was happening in my uncles room at my grandparents house by my ex boyfriend (my abuser). My ex's parents were home and I got hostile at them after because they did nothing. I've always felt that way I trusted his Mom to do something when he brought me to her for help after the fact. She and her husband just told me it was his way of coping. He had come over to get the rest of his stuff and then he kept brining up sex and I kept pushing away and was just trying to get him to leave and then he forced himself on me. :cry:

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  4. I just had a conversation with my guidance consular at school. I had let her know what happened to me. I had debated doing so with my family, we wanted to keep it more private but we figured it would help my case here at school. The assault made me miss a lot of school, I was very lethargic and upset. I never wanted to leave my room. But I've brightened up since then and pursued the idea of finishing out school. With help from my family encouraging me to stay in school and everything. But the stress has weakened my immune system, at least that is what my new boyfriend thinks. He's very health positive. But I have Vasovagal Syncope and it makes my heart rate go up and I faint a lot more. So I've been out of school more. But they just offered me a program to finish out my junior year. Basically I will do a few of my harder classes in a "home school setting" and just check in with my school every week and do a bunch of work from home and do my easier classes in a normal classroom setting. It really is going to make my life easier. And next year I'll be able to do all of my classes online from my laptop. I'm really grateful for the opportunity that my guidance consular has provided. I wanna do something nice for her.

    1. gorbaby

      gorbaby

      For me my heart rate goes up and it effects my already low blood pressure and I lose blood to the brain and faint.

       

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