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gorbaby

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  1. I feel like it didn't even happen. That it was my fault. I woke up in the middle of it and just did nothing.

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    2. tuliptorn

      tuliptorn

      Not your fault Gorbaby. 

    3. gorbaby

      gorbaby

      I feel that way too. I just froze and he started freaking out at what he did and he came to me for comfort. I gave it to him. I was so paralyzed.

       

    4. limbodante

      limbodante

      Part of it, playing the victim. Building the wall and making you pay for it, tjat is :/

  2. I haven't been on here in a long time. I got a call from the D.A months ago. I haven't done anything with that. Ive reached out to his parents and one of his friends. I called him. I just want an apology.

    1. Iheartcupcakes

      Iheartcupcakes

      Is the case still open? I am so sorry you're going through this. So am I. I am here if you need to talk.

  3. I reported it and it's going to the D.A's office now! :party:

    1. MeBeMary

      MeBeMary

      It takes a lot of courage, so congratulations! I hope he gets what he deserves and you get justice and peace that you deserve. :up: 

    2. SilentBird

      SilentBird

      I hope it works out really well and helps you heal. I am proud of you.

  4. Too afraid to sleep tonight. :unsure::shrugs:

  5. I haven't been on in a while but I finally reported it to the police with my witness to a confession made and told the woman everything. She was so lovely, it made me feel better. But since then I've had nightmares and I have a flashback today when I was on auto pilot and almost got hit by a car. Glad I didn't. But they brought in my abuser for questioning today and if I end up winning the case I am debating suing him too for emotional damage. His family is no stranger to money so I don't mind the idea. 

  6. Welcome, everyone is super nice and glad you reached out and found this place
  7. We're here for each other You'll find that everyone is super sweet and made me feel welcome right on the spot!
  8. Welcome, you'll find that here everyone is super nice!
  9. Just one of those low points where I'm feeling upset. Maybe I'm just tired I don't really know what is wrong. Just something feels off and I can't put my finger on it. 

    1. gorbaby

      gorbaby

      Ended up having a nightmare about being assaulted again. It was happening in my uncles room at my grandparents house by my ex boyfriend (my abuser). My ex's parents were home and I got hostile at them after because they did nothing. I've always felt that way I trusted his Mom to do something when he brought me to her for help after the fact. She and her husband just told me it was his way of coping. He had come over to get the rest of his stuff and then he kept brining up sex and I kept pushing away and was just trying to get him to leave and then he forced himself on me. :cry:

    2. MeBeMary

      MeBeMary

      Aww, gorbaby. I hate nightmares! So sorry you had such an awful one. :hug: if ok.

       

    3. gorbaby

      gorbaby

      Thanks MeBeMary, just nervous to have another nightmare

       

  10. I just had a conversation with my guidance consular at school. I had let her know what happened to me. I had debated doing so with my family, we wanted to keep it more private but we figured it would help my case here at school. The assault made me miss a lot of school, I was very lethargic and upset. I never wanted to leave my room. But I've brightened up since then and pursued the idea of finishing out school. With help from my family encouraging me to stay in school and everything. But the stress has weakened my immune system, at least that is what my new boyfriend thinks. He's very health positive. But I have Vasovagal Syncope and it makes my heart rate go up and I faint a lot more. So I've been out of school more. But they just offered me a program to finish out my junior year. Basically I will do a few of my harder classes in a "home school setting" and just check in with my school every week and do a bunch of work from home and do my easier classes in a normal classroom setting. It really is going to make my life easier. And next year I'll be able to do all of my classes online from my laptop. I'm really grateful for the opportunity that my guidance consular has provided. I wanna do something nice for her.

    1. SilentBird

      SilentBird

      I am glad you had the opportunity to talk to your guidance counselor. I also hope it helps. I thought vagal episodes caused the heart rate to drop.

    2. gorbaby

      gorbaby

      For me my heart rate goes up and it effects my already low blood pressure and I lose blood to the brain and faint.

       

  11. Hello! I'm Zoe. I'm new here I reached out looking for people who have gone through the same thing as me to talk to. And I found this site. I looked into a bit, everyone seems very friendly. I attached a clip my lovely new boyfriend took of me spray painting on a free building my new life motto. I hope to become more involved. Bye for now!
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