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  1. What on my mind? Bloody spiders!!!

    Don't know what's going on but finding huge ones around the house!! So if I'm not already nervous and anxious already, the spiders are making me worse!

    This morning my son heard me screaming, (I've earth shattering screams when it comes to spiders) and he arrived into the kitchen holding his runner up to kill the spider. I didn't know whether to laugh or cry! lol so I laughed! I had him already killed! Or down the drain in the sink.

    Literally check everywhere at night. Even my bed before I get in.

    I answered a post a few days ago about a wish list. I think I'll retract and say, I wish there were no spiders!!!!!! 

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    2. Irishgal8026


      When I complain about bugs, my family day, 'that's why there's spiders, to eat the bugs... ' as if they help!

      Yeah it's mating season now so they're out in their droves unfortunately.

      Keep your windows closed at night, and don't have lights on and windows open with the bugs... Not a fan of those either... 

    3. LuthienTinuviel


      follow the spiders why couldnt it be follow the spiders

      bloody hell

      tell those spiders ron.

    4. Irishgal8026


      lol no chance I'd follow them! lol

      Found another 3 today.. :cry::cry::cry:

  2. So today I received a letter!! I'm called for Jury Duty selection next month!! Whereas many people would hate this and dread it, I'm one of the few that would actually like this. I just hope I actually get selected. 


    1. MeBeMary


      :luck: Good luck on being selected! :luck:

  3. Random thoughts;

    I've counselling tomorrow which I'm dreading, I took a 3 week break as she needed hols and I needed a Tuesday afternoon off too. I'm shitting bricks actually. No real reason apart from every time I go in there, it's a reminder of why I'm there.

    I've family staying with me at the moment so that's why things are quiet with me. The remainder of them are arriving tomorrow. I've had a productive 3 weeks. Cleaned the house top to bottom, painted the place inside. Revamped the living room. Been pretty busy. And also went to see the Police. So, that's playing on my mind too.

    Feel like vomiting at the thoughts of tomorrow :(

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    2. Whisper


      Sorry you were sick. I'll pocket ride as well. I'm hoping that it won't be so bad once you get there. 

    3. Irishgal8026


      It went well!!! I was so ill with worry last night. I told her anyway.

      She's a lovely lady. Didn't want her thinking it was because of her. I just said that it's just a reminder and I hate the reminders...

      Thank you for pocket riding. I bought a necklace, it's got a love heart and engraved on it is 'PR coming through' PR meaning Pocket Riders. So when I feel overwhelmed and panicky I rub it. It's also got a the ribbon for sexual violence awareness and a lovely teal stone in it. 

    4. Iheartcupcakes


      Oh good!

      Your description of the necklace made my heart happy. I am so glad you have it. Remember we are always with you!

  4. Good. It'll make you feel stronger... Welcome trying...
  5. Hi Jersey, Welcome to AS. Glad you have found the site. It's really hard to know exactly how you feel, but know that each and everyone here has / is going through the exact same feelings. No does mean no. It's important in your own healing to realise your own feelings and views and not to be listening to anyone else. Some people are very narrow minded. You are not alone in this struggle and we all forward to getting to know you better.
  6. Hi Sarah, Welcome to AS, I'm glad you've found this site. It is very supportive. Sorry that you've had reason to find us here. But happy you have found it. I'm Sarah too. x
  7. Thanks for sharing. Haven't seen that. X
  8. Welcome Kayleigh. How are you? Firstly welcome to this site and I'm also sorry about the trauma that has brought you here. You are not alone. I understand the nightmares and flashbacks. I still get them. But learning to manage them better. My recent assault was nearly 3 months ago now, and find I'm still fighting a battle. But I know I'll win. Thinking of you and sending you safe hugs and thoughts
  9. Welcome Jessica, but also sorry you've had to find this site. You'll get wonderful support here and we're all listening. I'm very happy you've rekindled your friendship. It's the little things that count that being a smile to your face. I also love the little emoticons
  10. Irishgal8026

    My Story

    Hello Jim, how are you? Thank you for sharing your story with us. You've actually hit a chord with me. I have a 12 year old son, and I cannot imagine someone doing that to him. I cannot understand your brother's reply or your Dad's. It was NOT alright for that to be done to you at 12, you're right she did take away your innocence. It sounds that she preyed on you. By 'ignoring' you in the beginning etc... Why this 2nd woman did this to you I do not know. You mention that you 'can't turn her in' Yes you can! You can quite easily tell your mother. I think since your Dad had that reactio
  11. Hello and welcome. I'm so sorry about what has brought you here. You've def come to the right place for support. I hope you'll be OK. It's not an easy road.
  12. She shines in a world full of ugliness She matters when everything is meaningless Fragile She doesn't see her beauty She tries to get away Sometimes it's just that nothing seems worth saving I can't watch her slip away I won't let you fall apart!

  13. Hey, just tried to send you a message and it wouldn't let me...

    Just wanted to know how you are and to let you know I'm thinking about you 😊


    1. LuthienTinuviel


      thank you

      my inbox should be fine now if you wish to messageme still. it was full lol

      im still around. 

      that means a lot thank you.

    2. Irishgal8026
  14. Thank you Paula. Another Irish person!
  15. New here too and welcome. I'm 35 and single mother to my 12 year old son... Check out the forums. They're really helpful. I don't feel like I'm going crazy today.
  16. I didn't introduce myself properly. I'm a single 35 year old, have a 12 year old son. I'm a carer to my mother. I'm a survivor of past sexual abuse, rape, and again another rape more recently. It's a really tough battle. I want to scream. Between going from crying all the time to 'forgetting' then remembering, crying again and being so angry... My emotions are all over the place. Counselling session next Wed and it feels like months away. Longest week of my entire life...
  17. Thank you all. It's just so hard. Daybreak is my enemy and night is my friend but the nightmares have started and feeling rather stuck. No food in the house and I can barely manage getting milk from the shop. Wish it would all go away, want the pain on the inside to leave me. And the thoughts in my head. But I know I'm strong, and he will not get the better of me. I check this site out but only replying now as I just didn't know what to say or do. We're all here for the same reason. Strength in numbers
  18. Of course it will upset you. Talking about it kinda relives the situation. I'm here because of something that happened me last weekend. I'm going down the route of counselling. But, what I want to say is, this is the second time in my life that I've been a victim of rape. The first time was 18 years ago and I never dealt with it. You need to deal with all the crappy emotions. I'm so sorry we're all here for the same reason.
  19. Hi, I'm new here to this. Trying to see if I'm following guidlines. Feeling numb and having an out of body experience... Need to wake up from this nightmare...
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