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  1. Hi EyeZach. Would like to chat to about a topic you commented on last year. Message me if u have time:up:

  2. Thank You TeeJ . I am sorry your mother was so ignorant of the situation. Guess mine was too. I am sorry for what happened to you.
  3. I remember this particular day. I was sitting in our lounge on the couch. We were home alone. My father and I. He offered me money for sex. I shook my head meaning No. He asked me whether I was sure. I shook my head meaning yes. Tears were streaming down his face. He was trying to guilt me into sex. I was about 13 years old. That was the first time he ASKED to rape me. How insane is that? My positive thought for the day: Enjoy prison Daddy.
  4. Welcome Silence1970 I am sorry for the trauma you suffered. You will find wonderful support here
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    Hi Dasi I do find your first blog entry amusing. Like how you try to make "light" of certain things by using humor . I do admire your courage for giving your father another chance. I cant stand the thought of seeing my father again. Never mind communicate with him in any sort of way. Good luck with the rest of your healing process
  6. Hi Punky

    I used to feel the same way. Most of your days are filled with thoughts of the abuse. Tears are streaming down your face when you relive that trauma, when you get flashbacks or when you feel overwhelmed by feelings of anger, disappointment and hate towards your abuser. Sometimes feelings of self-blame towards yourself. You feel stuck and depressed almost all of the time and it just does not seem like it will get better, like you will ever be able to move on.  I am sorry it happened to you. You didn't deserve it.  

    Here is something I came across I would like to share with you:

    Tell yourself:
    Everything will work out.
    Things will get better.
    I am important.
    I am worthy of great things.
    I am lovable.
    The best is yet to come.
    I am strong.
    I will get through this.

    And you WILL get through this. Hope you feel better soon.

  7. Hi Dragonflies You will never be the same person again. That is a fact. I wished for that many times. Something happened that is going to affect the rest of your life. Sometimes in major ways in the sense that you cant bear the thought of someone else touching you, which could also possibly affect future relationships. And sometimes it will affect you in smaller ways, you might get triggered by simple and little things people say that reminds you of the abuser/abuse. You cant change what happened but you can choose how to deal with your trauma. Alienating yourself from others wont hel
  8. Hi HRKinsman What happened to me most of the time was also "silent" rape. No screaming, no fighting. I fought initially and eventually gave up. More details are on my Blog. What happened was not your fault. Sometimes we feel a lot of self blame, but you learn to deal better with it with time. Some people just don't know the legal definition of rape. I have been told I asked for it. People choose to burry their heads in the sand and look the other way. I was abused by my father and also kept quiet for years because I was ashamed, scared and I didnt want people to know that part of my l
  9. Hi All, I am quite new to the site. I hope my blog will benefit myself as well as those reading and following my story. My journey as a sexual abuse survivor started when I was four years old. It stopped for a few years and continued when I was about 9 years old. I reported it when I was 15 years old. For 7 years I was a victim. Im in my early 20's now. One day I just spilled the beans at school to a few of my teachers. Not so nonchalantly as it is coming across now. My father molested and raped me. Some incidents I remember vividly, other are just vague memories. I remember
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