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If you pray, please pray for me. If you don’t, I’ll take anything positive you can spare. I am going through something right now that compares with my trauma that brought me here nearly 7 years ago (different). I. Am. TIRED. I feel like I have nothing left. Life has dealt me 40 years of loss and trauma and I am WORN. OUT. Happily ever afters are apparently for people other than me.
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I have my post-op appointment at 1:30 EST. I’m afraid of knowing all the details. My fiancé gave me a glossed over version after I woke up. He and the OBGYN didn’t want me too upset right after surgery.
I’ll be seeing multiple pics of my internal organs/endometriosis. We’ll discuss the future and treatment options. They did a biopsy. Today I get all the info.
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All moved and settling in. I’m very happy with my loves…my SO and his 7-year-old son. My dog is adjusting but it’s been a little bumpy. Since he witnessed my trauma he’s obsessively protective of me. He’s nipped SO. We’re working on it. I like NC so far.
Still no activity in the rule 37 petition. Oh well.
Very busy being a stay-at-home mom for the time being. I love it. To those of you who are SAHM’s or moms who also work…you’re AMAZING. I’m busier now than when I worked full time!
Love to you all ❤️
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Remember, my loves, that healing is layered....not linear.
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I love you all 💙💚🎗
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Heard from the DA yesterday. The judge actually talked about a hearing for the monster's petition not being necessary!!!! He could just deny it and it would be OVER! I am praying this happens. No hearing, no more anything. Just OVER.
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Thank you so much @Field8 @MeBeMary @AngelasAshes and @Capulet. I am really hopeful. I told my T last night that this is the first time since it happened that I feel like I might be on the other side of it.
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Thank you @mini.finch 😍
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I have been here before. Heck I have been here for SIX YEARS, to be exact. Clearly I am no stranger to waiting and being at the mercy of others 😡 So WHY do I feel like climbing the walls and screaming because nothing has been done on this last petition of the monster's??? The freaking judge has had since DECEMBER to set a hearing date. Has he? Well of course not. I have followed up with his office (they won't talk to little old me) AND the prosecutor. I am SO OVER THIS! Set a damn date already and let's bury this, please!!
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Oooooh! Interesting! Thank you for sharing!!
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Six years ago tonight and tomorrow. Six years. I cannot believe what I lived through. Last night was rough and tonight will be even worse. I can’t believe what happened to me…
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Thinking of you and sending you hugs. I can't believe what you went through either and traumaversaries suck, but you survived, you put your rapist in prison and gave an eloquent and awesome victim impact statement, you are healing, and you are doing so much to help others. Not to mention how incredibly focused you were not only on doing what you had to do to survive that night, but also on ensuring that your rapist would be caught. You are an amazing and incredibly strong woman and that hasn't changed.
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It's a little ridiculous that I have a broken heart (relationship wasn't that long) but I do. Riding the wave, as my T puts it. It sucks. 💔
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Awww, Im so sorry (hugs if comfortable). Been through that a couple times. In my case, the rejection hurt so bad, and just when I was staring to like them too 😥 So heart breaking.
Sounds like your heart is pure and unlocked; able to allow the possibility of letting love in. Hang in there precious one. Sitting with you.
-Mimi
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@Whisper Thank you. It did move fast. At first I was cautious and resistant. He somehow won me over. I haven't felt what I felt for him in a very long time, if ever. My boss said he knows why M moved so fast...he knew what a good thing he had. I guess not though...bc he threw me away pretty easily.
@mini.finch @MeBeMary @orangegiraffe thank you friends
@Mimi M. I will. Thank you for the kind words. They helped.
@Field8 Thank you
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Things improve and there is a glimmer of hope and then BAM. The rug is yanked out from under me. I don't know if I have the energy to get up anymore. My SO's trauma plus mine (traumaversarys are next month for me) is overwhelming. And...it's mostly his. I am dealing really well with mine. Probably because I don't have any energy left to give to it....Hurting. Confused. Struggling. TIRED.
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Thank you @8888 @feralcat and @waterlily13
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Really struggling right now. In a lot of pain. Can't seem to comfort myself. It's not my trauma but how my SO's is affecting me. Could use all the support.
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@WannaMoveOn @Capulet @mini.finch @Field8 @AKB @MeBeMary @matts thank you all so much. I had a rough weekend, with missing him since I was supposed to be on my trip to visit him, but it wasn't as hard as I thought it would be. He is really trying to be more present and be mindful of the way he is affecting me, and I appreciate it. But, I just want HIM to be okay. The traumaversary is Monday for him.
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Sending you lots of love @Iheartcupcakes, that sounds so hard, hoping you are finding some comfort❤️
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thank you, my friend. @waterlily13
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The appeal should be decided on Wednesday although that date is not firm. Fall is already hard for me. I am really feeling the depression. I am so happy with my partner, and I am going to see him soon. It's just hard to shake all of this. People tell me to focus on the future and not look back, but they have no idea how hard that is when the past keeps intruding and you have no control...be it the court system or with PTSD and depression....
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@Iheartcupcakes - I get it, it’s hard to focus on your future when your past is still a large part of it. Whenever something new pops up, we cannot help but drag the past along with us because it’s always going to be present. I am so glad your new beau is someone who will be glad to help you carry it. I’m sorry the courts are dragging things out and giving you more to worry about; especially now. I am always here if you need to vent. 💕 -
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Loving our community. I am so glad to be a part of such an amazing group of people. We don't celebrate the reasons, but I do celebrate YOU. Love to you all
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So defeated. Just so much going on. It seems like there are issues in every area of my life. Feeling hopeless, unlovable, and not worth it. Don't know where to go from here. What is the point of continuing to work? For what? What kind of a future can I have? I feel like things keep not working out in all areas and it's just what is going to keep happening. I am so tired. I had a hard time sleeping last night and cried a lot. This morning I just want to sit at my desk and cry and wish I was home in bed. First off my boss started in on me assuming a big error that was made was mine (it was not) without even asking me about it first. Now I am trying not to take all of my pain out on my coworkers....Friday cannot come soon enough. I just want to hide away in my house this weekend.
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@Whisper and @waterlily13 thank you so much
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My five-year AS-aversary was in March. I am so thankful that I found this community. I love you all so much! - Amy
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@Poppy_ thank you so much! I am thankful to know you too
Lots of love back!
@waterlily13 awww it makes me so happy to hear that. Thank you so much. I am blessed to know you as well!
@Whisper it feels like forever, doesn't it?? ❤️
@MeBeMary Yes! That is a great way of looking at it. I am grateful for your friendship!
@mini.finch thank you!
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Still waiting on appeal to be heard by the state Supreme Court. Could take months.....
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So sorry it's this season for you, Poppy. I know how hard it is. Your feelings are valid, but I happen to know that you are NOT worthless. I wish I could lift this pain from you. Know that your AS family is here with you in it. Amy
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MYYYYYYYYY FRIEEEEEENNNNNNDDDDDDDD IS BAAAAAAACK!!!!!!
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Here's to a New Year and a Life Update!
Iheartcupcakes commented on Poppy_'s blog entry in Blah, Blah, Blog
I am so happy you are okay, Poppy. You are so very precious. I hope it works out with this new T. I would have felt exactly how you felt about being dropped from your old one. But hopefully, K will be a better fit. ❤️ -
Struggling hard. So sorry. I may continue to be scarce until after this weekend when the 5th anniversary is. Love you all so much. Truly.
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Today is the day. The Supreme Court (of AR) gave The Monster's scumbag defense lawyers until today to file their writ of certiorari with them and you guessed it. There is NOTHING on the docket so far. They've had THREE YEARS to do this, and they can't even honor a two week-deadline given to them by a court that can sanction them, etc. They are unbelievable. If you have followed my story, you already know that. I just wonder how long this will be allowed to continue. I am tired. But, no one gives a you-know-what about me. Not the Court, not his lawyers, no one in the system. Victims don't get lawyers for themselves, and once a case has progressed to an appeal, the prosecutor is done. Once again, I am my own advocate. And, like I said, I am tired.
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Sending you lots of love, hugs, and extra strength. I don't know what those morons are thinking. This is a hard time of year for you anyway and a horrible year for everyone, but remember that the monster is locked up and will not be able to spend the holidays with his family - nor will those wretched people be able to spend the holidays with him.
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https://www.cleo.on.ca/en/publications/handbook
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Nothing is helping. I felt a bit better after writing yesterday and posting it here, but I am still in a pit. I am at work trying to avoid everyone so that I don't take it out on them. I left my anxiety meds at home...but what good would they do anyway? I feel more depressed than anxious. I wish I was home with my dogs. But even then, I am still suffering. I have no idea what to do.
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@Iheartcupcakes sitting with you ❤️
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Thanks Lex
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