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Punky5

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  1. The anxiety is overwhelming right now...

    1. josiel
    2. MeBeMary

      MeBeMary

      So sorry anxiety is an issue. Sitting with you, with :hug: if ok.

  2. A year later, i can finally see what my amazing support group saw in me... I've been thru a lot and slowly but surely i've overcome it and i'm still here!

    I AM STRONG! 

  3. Hi Punky

    I used to feel the same way. Most of your days are filled with thoughts of the abuse. Tears are streaming down your face when you relive that trauma, when you get flashbacks or when you feel overwhelmed by feelings of anger, disappointment and hate towards your abuser. Sometimes feelings of self-blame towards yourself. You feel stuck and depressed almost all of the time and it just does not seem like it will get better, like you will ever be able to move on.  I am sorry it happened to you. You didn't deserve it.  

    Here is something I came across I would like to share with you:

    Tell yourself:
    Everything will work out.
    Things will get better.
    I am important.
    I am worthy of great things.
    I am lovable.
    The best is yet to come.
    I am strong.
    I will get through this.

    And you WILL get through this. Hope you feel better soon.

  4. One step forward and two steps back...

  5. I don't feel happy, i don't feel sad, i don't feel angry... I feel indifferent about everything! :(

    1. Little Mermaid Girl

      Little Mermaid Girl

      i hope you feel better soon hun.

  6. I feel like nothing... I feel like I'm back to square one :cry:

    1. fallenstar

      fallenstar

      You are not nothing, you are somebody! :)

    2. OmegaWolf

      OmegaWolf

      You are somebody, friend. My inbox is openel if you need to talk.

  7. Knew my good mood wouldn't last long... 

  8. Yesterday was a really good day.... I haven't felt that way in such a long time... We'll see how much it last! 

    1. Butterflyluv

      Butterflyluv

      So glad you had a good day!

  9. Numbness...

    1. hayatee

      hayatee

      I feel you :( I´m constantly numb these days. 

    2. Punky5

      Punky5

      For me it comes and goes... My feelings are all over the place! One second I'm good and the other i feel nothing.... Just numb! 

  10. Why do they say i'm strong?!?! when i feel so weak!!!

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    2. somerandomguy1985

      somerandomguy1985

      Mostly it's just a thing that people say thinking it helps to hear it.  I used to hate hearing it; it felt somehow patronizing, but I came to realize that a lot of people are at a loss for words and really don't know how to express their support any other way.

    3. hayatee

      hayatee

      Because in the eyes of others you are strong for surviving the pain of what you have had to go through. I feel the same way. I once screamed at my therapist to shut up, to not say those words to me, to stop saying I´m so strong when I´m this weak mess, this broken girl. She said that you can feel weak and be strong at the same time. That surviving everyday despite this feeling of utter helplessness is in fact being strong. And that being strong does´t mean I can´t let myself feel broken. It just means that I am doing the absolute best I can and that for her, knowing what I´ve been through, that means I am strong. 

    4. Punky5

      Punky5

      Thanks... I don't like feeling vulnerable and for people to see me cry and that's all i've done in the past months. My friends keep saying i'm such a strong woman for dealing with everything and still passing my semester and keep going! But i just feel I've just barely made though it... And that i can't give that horrible person the satisfaction of me failing and abandoning my life dream!!! 

       Hayatee that makes me look at it in a different way and it really helps... Thank you

  11. Hi everybody… Newbie here! Very recently went thru some difficult stuff in my life! Even though i usually don't like to open up and show that i'm hurting... Talking to a friend that has dealt with difficult things thru out his life has shown me that it isn't wrong to talk and be vulnerable sometimes! So looking around for ways to deal with my pain i found this group and thought i could give it a try.... Really hoping that i can get the help i need here... Looking forward to it!!
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