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  1. Do not call me a survivor

    i personally dont call myself victim or survivor.
  2. this weekend has had me in tears and it's not even finished or near finished


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    2. Ghostly Lilian

      Ghostly Lilian

      Sorry :( Sitting with you, you're not alone :console:

    3. elisand


      here for you

      safe hugs if ok

    4. LuthienTinuviel


      thank you all. so kind of yous

  3. no one will rescue me.....

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    2. Free2Fly


      Safe hugs :hug: if ok?

      sitting with you blt 

    3. LuthienTinuviel


      thank you. i cant believe how im even taking care of myself a little bit. i kind of dont want to. its hard when you still want to keep the bad coping mechanisms but try not to.

    4. Free2Fly


      Your welcome , :hug: 

      i know what you mean, the bad coping mechanisms are always around when we don't want them.

      still sitting with you if ok?

  4. i feel like i dont deserve peace and safety.

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    2. LuthienTinuviel


      Thank you @Hawkgirl and @ActivistAlly

      Doing badly lately 

    3. 8888


      You DO deserve peace and safety.  I wish I could send you both.

    4. LuthienTinuviel


      thank you @8888

      hope you are all ok.

  5. im writing something. i plan it to be a fantasy book or even series. it is still in its infancy as far as jotting random notes or ideas. im more of a musician i guess. but i find fantasy and sci fi very musical in itself. they end up having good soundtracks.

    1. Free2Fly


      :hug:  sounds like a good idea.

    2. elisand


      have you written before?

    3. LuthienTinuviel


      only monologues, a couople speeches adn mostly poetry 

      do you write?

  6. It would bring me and my sister closer if she didn't lack empathy

    1. Free2Fly


      safe hugs :hug: if okay?

      siblings are sometimes hard to communicate with.

  7. My little angel is gone :'( 

    1. Seagoat


      So sorry to hear 😥 I've lost pet birds before who I was very close to. They are very kind and loving creatures and I know it hurts 

    2. LuthienTinuviel



      Thank you, 

      I have been taking time to let myself mourn 

  8. Worried about birb . I'm crying and my chest burns 

  9. Disgusted 

    1. Painnbroken


      Sitting with you if okay and very safe :hug:if ok

    2. LuthienTinuviel


      :hug:@painnbroken for you too 

  10. :rain::rain:

    1. Free2Fly


      It was raining here early so much rain

  11. Feeling poorly and a dread. I was fine. But now I'm not

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    2. BabyDeepBlue


      Safe hugs :hug:

      I am right behind you. Spent Christmas Eve, Christmas, and Tuesday in bed myself. First day I have been up all day. 

      Hope you feel better soon. 

    3. LuthienTinuviel
    4. LuthienTinuviel


      thank you all :hug:

      hope you feel bette rsoon as well

      i had bloodwork done this week.

  12. erm. my laptop freed its own space. is that normal? i hope it didnt get rid of something i dont want it to but if it found junk, fine....

    1. BabyDeepBlue


      Computers are definitely a pain

  13. do you really think i wasnt going to find out? 

  14. Got on the wrong bus today. Feel sick and exhausted. 

    1. GaleH


      Sorry lt 

      anytime someone thinks I'm on foot with no car people treat me differently and know I'm more vulnerable 

    2. Free2Fly


      Safe hugs :hug: if okay?

  15. im in physical pain and no energy to do much. i went out for a walk yet had to check to see if anyone broke in while i was out . that is how bad my fear can be.

    1. fallenstar


      Aww sorry you're feeling so poorly. I do hope both your physical pain and fear subside! :hug:

    2. LuthienTinuviel
  16. question of the day. 

    if you started watching a show and it ended up having things that were relatable to you such as sexual abuse, and someone ends up watching it with you (you cant stop them legally) woul dyou feel more triggered especially since they werent supportive?

  17. anyone hate making decisions? for anything? is it a survivor thing?

    1. snmls


      I do.  I think it stems from my emotional abuse.  

  18. but really i wish i had someone to spend thanksgiving with. im alone, manipulated and hurt :'(

    1. snmls


      I'm sorry you are feeling lonely this thanksgiving.  I wish we could have an AS thanksgiving.  Spending today with my family was as bad as I thought it would be.  

    2. LuthienTinuviel


      Yes. My eyes burn from when I heard hurtful things . I'm sorry you feel the same :(

  19. happy thanksgiving. i  know there  are some things for us to be thankful. even if its coffee this morning, or chocolate. anything.... 

  20. When she was just a girl she expected the world
    But it flew away from her reach and the bullets catch in her teeth
    Life goes on, it gets so heavy
    The wheel breaks the butterfly every tear a waterfall
    In the night the stormy night she'll close her eyes
    In the night the stormy night away she'd fly

    1. Annie7


      that's quite beautiful and sad

  21. I feel manipulated and hurt :'(

    1. Free2Fly


      Safe hugs :hug: .

      hope your okay.

  22. how do i escape this cesspool i call life?

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    2. BraveOne


      Sitting with you. Saddly I dont have the answers for you either, but I feel the same way sending support your way

    3. LuthienTinuviel
    4. Juniperberry1900


      Hi LT, I’m sorry to see you’ve been having such a hard time lately. I’m not sure what sort of thing to suggest. I hope it starts to turn around soon though. Safe right armed hug around the shoulders. 

      Do you find joy in the holidays that are coming up? Is there anywhere you could volunteer some time? It may life spirits and feel good too? ...just N idea.