BlueCanvas

I am a survivor of sexual abuse from a high school teacher. It took over a decade before I had the strength to come forward and report what had happen to me. He is now serving time in prison.

I was also a victim of physical abuse as a child from my stepfather. I endured long periods of beatings, isolation and neglect. I lived my life walking on eggshells. I was not allowed to have friends, talk on the phone, or socialize in any way. I spent most of my childhood in my room in the dark and all I did was draw.

I constantly struggle with PTSD, major depression, anger, and my identity. I experience bouts of depersonalization and disassociation and have a hard time fighting suicidal ideation. Because of the lack of contact with people I have a hard time forming interpersonal relationships and overall I have a distrust for people. Despite these obstacles I am trying to pick up the pieces of my broken childhood and put together some semblance of a normal life.

I would like to ask for people to be patient and kind with me.

I feel very alone and am hoping to gain support of some kind from this forum.