[Feeling Down]

Hi Kmiller,

I know exactly how you feel, writing about it will really does help. Also Therapy takes a while, it gets worse before it gets better. Make sure that is the right therapist for you though, I have been through a few different ones and finally found one I liked about a year ago. My experience with therapy, just what I have found, was that my therapist waited until I was completely comfortable and trusted her before we got into the memories. At first, we just dealt with the random triggers and negative thoughts. Its great that your boyfriend is so open to hearing about your thoughts and feelings though he sounds like a great guy! 

I know most people are against them but I am also on medication to help with my nightmares, flash backs, and mood swings. Not for everyone but may be something you could look into? Just for the time being until you can figure out your feelings. Again I am just speaking from my experience.

But I hope everything goes well with you, your seeking help and you have a good support system (your boyfriend) so you can do this. 

[Decisions Made]

Good Luck with everything!! Your story is very close to mine and I really admire your courage. 

I hope that everything works out. You really should report him to the police. 

Also I cut my father out of my life, it wasn't easy either but I am a lot happier because of it.

 

[The Beginning]

Thank you so much for your comment and I am so sorry to hear about your experience glad you're able to stop put a stop to it