Beamcam

so done with everything im giving up 

just what I thought I dont matter 

just what I thought I dont matter 

so done with everything im giving up 

just done done done with everything

just done done done with everything

just done done done with everything

why bother when it falls on deaf ears 

Tired of it all not sleeping,  nonstop flashbacks. feeling of no self worth,  feeling like people say Im important but I am not, tired of light 

Tired of it all not sleeping,  nonstop flashbacks. feeling of no self worth,  feeling like people say Im important but I am not, tired of light 

Tired of it all not sleeping,  nonstop flashbacks. feeling of no self worth,  feeling like people say Im important but I am not, tired of light 

Tired of it all not sleeping,  nonstop flashbacks. feeling of no self worth,  feeling like people say Im important but I am not, tired of light 

Tired of it all not sleeping,  nonstop flashbacks. feeling of no self worth,  feeling like people say Im important but I am not, tired of light 

I totally give up Im not important why do I even bother anymore

Never trust nice people. Be careful about which of the rude people to trust. Only trust CATS! They are the honest kind of rude.

Never trust nice people. Be careful about which of the rude people to trust. Only trust CATS! They are the honest kind of rude.

I'm so ready to pack my bags and my dog up and leave town. Too many snakes here this weekend and more today.  

I'm so ready to pack my bags and my dog up and leave town. Too many snakes here this weekend and more today.  

The people on this site inspire me. I want to start healing so that I can be an inspiration for others instead of the toxic, damaged person I am now.

The people on this site inspire me. I want to start healing so that I can be an inspiration for others instead of the toxic, damaged person I am now.

I put my introduction in the "About Me" section. So uh... look there? I don't know why I'm here or why anyone should care what I struggle with. It's so small compared to what some have gone through.

If anyone has ever consumed alcohol with a man and not been molested, let me know! Especially let me know if it was a platonic relationship where the man was sexually interested in the women. I'm assuming they were interested in me. Why else would they do what they did? I'm trying to gather evidence to counter my own experiences.

Oh and don't hate me. I'm trying to grow to not hate men but it's hard. I know it is my fault so please, don't hate me for it.

Am I ever allowed to have one day of peace that isn't triggering.  Why must I be triggered by this person. 

Am I ever allowed to have one day of peace that isn't triggering.  Why must I be triggered by this person. 

(((((((Beamcam))))))) not true, you are smart and funny, please try not to listen to the depression that is lying to you and telling you that, sending hugs, peace and calm, love teleah

Im useless and worthless