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If you read my last blog entry, you would know that I recently spoke out about what happened to me. As a child I was "harmed" by my father. I didn't remember until after I was raped years and years later. I was so flooded with emotion - I started harming myself. It lead to the point that I became suicidal. I mentioned it to a two family members. They had a lot of questions and seemed mad. I was already overwhelmed with what I was feeling and wasn't ready to answer their questions, and more so was not ready to tell them who it was. So, I bottled it back up. I spent a few years pretendin

Hi Everyone - I came to After Silence to seek out some support and talk with other people that I could relate to. I recently just spoke out to my family about what happened to me. Although my family and some friends are very supportive, it feels very lonely because there is a lot that they don't understand, nor do I expect them to, so I came here to seek out additional support. I hope this was the right place to come! From what I have seen so far, it looks very supportive!

You are not alone. I too wish I knew how to ease it. I wish I had people in my life that understood. I wish I didn't feel so afraid to talk more to them about it - I don't want to be a burden. It makes them uncomfortable so I stop reaching out. I don't want to add to the pain and discomfort in their lives - I love them. I ask myself all the time who will love me enough to help me? I always get the same answer - no one. I would much rather feel physical pain than the pain I feel because at least I would know it would go away. I know I have more to offer, but all I can feel is the hate,

This is my first blog post - ever. Please bare with me while I get used to it. I just started going to counseling and she suggested a blog might help, and I think it might too. In advance, I would like to thank anyone who reads and responds. So here goes my first post... About two weeks ago my boyfriend broke up with me. He was the first man I opened my heart to. I have closed myself up, put up so many walls, and wouldn't let anyone in for so long. He felt right and I was tired of numbing my feelings. I opened up and it brought through many other feelings and reactions I did not expect.