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limbodante

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  1. Super depressed. Mustn't cave. Probably will. Bah.

  2. The universe revolves around you. Without you there to see it, it doesn't eixst. The nature of atoms changes when observed. Literally nobody else sees the world quite as you do, you create the entire universe with your presence, merely by existing. So be kind to you. The universe as you know it depends on it x

  3. Bad dreams. Bad bad bad bad bad bad bad dreams. Disturbing bad horrible unpleasant bad bad dreams. And nasal congestion.

    1. winterwishes

      winterwishes

      i know nightmares are so hard sending you kittens in the hopes you may have a better night :kitty::kitty::kitty:

    2. limbodante

      limbodante

      That's lovely, ta very much :)

  4. It's gonna be a late night I think, I'm feeling rattled, about several things. Generally impotence about how shit people can be and not knowing how I can help change things for the better.

  5. I'm a gentleman with no wish to be snooty

    I devote as much time as I can to the neglect of my duties ^.^

  6. Sometimes I'll have a conversation or say something funny, and I think "am I really a depressive, have I really been sui*? Have I really been through what I have?" It shows I'm healing, but I've been broken for so long, it feels so weird. It's like such a huge part of my identity is fallen away when I get a glimpse through the cloud and see the sky. Not entirely unpleasant at all. Just very odd.

  7. Welcome welcome, and well done for saying something
  8. A friend destroyed me last night. Trigger warnings aren't just wishy washy molly coddling for special little snowflakes. He just launched into an old diary entry featuring self harm and it gave me a huge anxiety attack coz I was already really tired, ready for sleep. Need to have a talk with him today about that. Much anxiety this morning for those reasons >.<

  9. I confess that I too am a bra warrior. And sock ninja.

    1. limbodante

      limbodante

      Anything for the lols, child :D Annie, erm... not sure how to explain, but you missed a treat in chat last night ^_^ We were talking about how to to weaponise underwear for spider and fly fighting purposes xD

    2. winterwishes

      winterwishes

      You my friend are a - SOCK MUFFIN ha

    3. Annie7

      Annie7

      i usually befriend flies and let them land on me, if you are as lonely as i am, an insect is a friend, haha, guess i can't join this roving gang of bandits 

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  10. Trigger warning for mentioning t*rture, but this is a positive status.

    Facebook reminds me of my memories today. This is one of them:

    The nightmares are happening almost every night now. Nazi dreams continue, tortured by hitler himself lsstbnight, leading to my firstvnight terror/sleep paralysis in 12 years. Tonight, lured into a demonic sect by a girl i once loved and imprisoned. Not sure what's causing these dreams. Maybe related to my trying to process my abuse and metaphorical demons. Getting harder to face going to bed and waking up last night i couldn't let myself go back to sleep for a while. Tonight i woke up in a panic, not knowing where i was. The hospitals a week late in arranging my next appointment to see them and the psychiatrist, feels like they're testing me, my willingness to engage. I'm drowsy at the wheel, but there's nobody to take over so i can rest, and sooner or later I'm gonna fall asleep.

    The reason I share this is because that was a year ago, around the time I started hallucinating through lack of sleep. But it's a status of hope. I had five or six night terrors over two weeks, but by the last one, I knew what the feeling was, how it was building, and knew something terrifying was about to happen. I think I was at a funeral for my favourite aunt (who passed in 1998), and I knew it was coming. So I left the room. Lucid dreaming is awesome. I've not had a night terror since, touch wood. The mind learns new tricks. And regarding processing the abuse, it seems to have helped. I've made a huge amount of progress in the year since. So yeah. Stuff improves :)

  11. Greet each day with a smile. An ominous smile. A knowing smile. Smile at the day until the sun returns to its horizon, scared and tired.

  12. Feeling emotional today. Not in a bad way, I'm not upset exactly, I just feel slightly um.. brittle, I guess would be the best word for it. I think it's gonna be a weepy day. This is a good thing, I've had so much going on in my body, so much emotion, I've needed to cry for a couple of weeks. I think today will purge those feelings, it will be cathartic and healthy and afterward I'll feel a lot better.

    I hope.

  13. HEY YOU! YOU, READING THIS! You're awesome! Keep up the good work!

    1. missfrier

      missfrier

      noooooooooo im not awesome  im usless  failure   annoyign pain in  bum 

    2. snmls

      snmls

      You're awesome too Limbodante and so are you Missfrier.  :throb:

    3. missfrier

      missfrier

      Ty snmls but I'm not

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  14. Guess who was so upset last night they forgot to take their "there's a chance you might sleep" meds? Bahhh

  15. I try to be positive, I go out of my way to be energetic and friendly here because helping others makes me feel better myself, but tonight it's not happening. I'm so lonely in my life, I'm constantly ignored on okcupid, I'm thinking of the reason I'm here and how she has the other half of an amethyst pendant my dad gave me before he died and how wrong that feels.. I'm not teary yet but I'm feeling more fed up than I have for a long time. Something really has to give.

    1. limbodante

      limbodante

      Your username is very apt, you're very weet. Thank you for your support. It's such a cliche, the "sad clown" arcehtype, but I've always felt it suits me perfectly. I am Pierrot, always making people laugh while pining for a woman who doesn't want him. The women have varied through the years, but the situation never changes. I laugh, I joke, but inside I'm screaming, and when the laughter stops, the silence crushes me.

    2. loveable

      loveable

      *her mouth drops wide open while exclaiming "My god! your like the guy version of me!" Seriously! Wow! It's like you just put into words exactly why I am in this depression.

    3. loveable
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  16. I have no regrets!

    How did the hipster burn his tongue?

    He sipped his pumpkin spice latte before it was cool.

  17. It's a new dawn, it's a new day, it's a new liiiiiife foooor meeeeee

    And I'm feeeeling .. perfectly average. Shan't complain. Got baked potato and cheese ^_^

    1. EmptyInside

      EmptyInside

      You and your foods lol!! You almost make me hungry haha

  18. Why is water an ingredient in shampoo? You're presumably using it while sat or stood in water...

    1. EmptyInside

      EmptyInside

      Hahah! This cheered me up a bit lol

  19. Why do people only ever WRESTLE with their demons? Doesn't anyone ever have kung fu rap battles with their past or something? A game of riddles? A drink spiked with iocaine powder? Mix it up, people!

  20. Very nervous, but the thing about nerves is it's the same physiological process as excitement, so I choose to see excitement and not fear. We'll see how justified that is shortly, I imagine :D Also, that ice cream was a terrible mistake, I forget how poorly my body responds. curses!

    1. missfrier

      missfrier

      aww whys   that  

    2. limbodante

      limbodante

      I've never done it before, I may get drunk with UNLIMITED POOWWWEERRRR *sith emperor voice*. But no, that's not gonna happen, I'm just downplaying my nerves :3

    3. missfrier

      missfrier

      awww  if  it what i think it   you will be  great  honestly  u have  what it  takess  to be chat  mod 

       

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  21. Welcome ^.^ I can't express myself easily either, disjointed is the best you'll get from me, usually, so don't worry about making sense straight off the bat, you're new, you'll get better
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