EmptyInside

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About EmptyInside

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    Battling Onwards
  • Birthday 02/22/1988

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  • Gender
    Female
  • Location
    Berkshire, UK
  • Interests
    Psychology, photography, poetry and most of all... animals!

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  1. I'm sorry xx

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    2. LuthienTinuviel

      LuthienTinuviel

      Sitting with you if ok 

    3. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Hope ur okay?

    4. EmptyInside

      EmptyInside

      Did something pretty stupid on Friday night and while I've been up and about, it's taken until now (Sunday night) to come to my senses only to discover I still feel SU

  2. I wish someone could help me. I feel so unbearably bad I don't know what to do with myself...

    1. Annie7

      Annie7

      sitting with you if you like, i know the feeling all too well 

    2. LuthienTinuviel

      LuthienTinuviel

      I'm really sorry. Hugs if ok 

    3. EmptyInside

      EmptyInside

      Thank you both for your comments, it's really meant a lot to me..

  3. Hi and welcome Thank you for your introduction, I hope that you find us all a welcoming bunch and that we can follow your journey of discovery and healing.
  4. Really agitated. Can't stay still. Can't stop flashbacks. Can't cope. 

    1. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Safe hugs :hug: if ok?

      hope your okay &I somewhere safe.

    2. EmptyInside

      EmptyInside

      At home curled up on my bed but I can't stay still, doubt I'll sleep again tonight. I don't feel I'm in a safe place

    3. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Safe hugs & sitting with you if okay? :hug: 

  5. Feeling so overwhelmed and Sui. So.. so.. alone.. it's at times like this that I feel there is nobody I can turn to 

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    2. Painnbroken

      Painnbroken

      Sitting with you and safe hugs to you if ok.  

    3. fallenstar

      fallenstar

      I hope today is a better day for you. I'm sorry you feel so badly. I can relate to your feeling that people have abandoned you because you need them more now. considering what you're going through, I would not call you needy. What you're feeling is totally normal. :hug:if ok. AS is always here for you.

    4. EmptyInside

      EmptyInside

      Thank you everyone :hug:

      It was a rough night and I'm not feeling much better today. Mostly I have just lay on my bed all day staring at the wall and crying. Feel so dead inside.

  6. Typical... just what I need... a massive chest infection on a bank holiday so no Drs open. Especially as one of my main triggers is struggling to breathe....

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    2. Painnbroken

      Painnbroken

      I'm sorry you're not feeling well. I hope you begin to feeling better soon. :getwell:

    3. EmptyInside

      EmptyInside

      Thank you LT and Painn, your well wishes mean a lot :)

      I did feel better when I initially woke up but now I'm feeling awful again :( 

    4. Painnbroken

      Painnbroken

      I'm sorry dear...make sure you drink plenty of fluids and try to get some rest.  I apologize the medical part of me pops out every now and then.  Safe hugs to you 

  7. Its depressing when you realise you have someone to turn to for nearly everything but when it boils down to it and things get tough... there's nobody there for you...

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    2. EmptyInside

      EmptyInside

      Thank you :sadang:

    3. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Your always welcome EI 

      :hug::hug::hug: if okay?

       

      free :butterfly: 

    4. Painnbroken

      Painnbroken

      I hear ya!  Here for you as well!  Safe :hug:if okay

  8. I can't bear this pain *sobs* the flashbacks just won't stop... all day... every time I close my eyes it comes rushing back. 

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    2. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Safe hugs :hug: if okay?

       

    3. EmptyInside

      EmptyInside

      Much appreciated as I don't feel very safe...

    4. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      I understand, I don't feel so good today either , I keep switching off and staring into space & other triggers.

       

      hope your okay :) 

  9. Really struggling with severe anxiety at the moment. Not eating much or sleeping and my moods on a downward turn... my best friend who is like my sister is in hospital and very poorly... its serious...

    1. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Safe hugs :hug: if okay?

      & sitting with you anxiety is horrible I know it all too well myself :( .

       

      here for you if you need somebody.

       

      free2fly :tealribbon: 

    2. EmptyInside

      EmptyInside

      Thank you Free2Fly, hugs much appreciated.

      My mood was already on a downwards spiral and now my anxiety is so high its kind of going downhill faster. Though on the plus side my friends CT scan was reasonably clear, they think its meningitis and have been treating her as if it is.

    3. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      :hug: 

      thats good at least they know what it is.

      feel free to message me if you need to talk or anything, I tend to be around most of the time & I will listen. :) 

       

      Still sitting with you.

       

      free2fly

  10. I guess I am missing you all my friends but I am, for the most part, avoiding forums whilst I'm in such a damaged and fragile state. Am ghosting around...

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    2. EmptyInside

      EmptyInside

      Thank you my friend x

    3. fallenstar

      fallenstar

      I've missed you too. No pressure to post though. Do what you can, nothin more. If lurking is helping, lurk away :)

      Sorry you're feeling damaged and fragile. We're here for you

    4. EmptyInside

      EmptyInside

      Thank you fallenstar, that means a lot. I am lurking for now but at same time feel so desperately isolated. But I can't talk to people... I don't know what to say... 

  11. Major flashback time. Could do with some hugs. Not normally so needy but I feel alone and scared.

  12. Hurting terribly. Not sure I can bear all of this pain :'(

  13. Welcome to AS although I am sorry you have such a reason to be here.. Here you will be believed and we are all here to listen to you when you are ready to talk.
  14. Didn't sleep. Haven't slept more than 1-2 hours a night max for nearly two weeks, feel slightly doolally today. Got off to a really bad start today as well. 

  15. Really really struggling tonight :(

     

    1. MeBeMary

      MeBeMary

      Sitting with you. :hug: if ok.

       

    2. EmptyInside

      EmptyInside

      Thank you. It hasn't got any easier so i am going to a friends where i am safer.