Jaybird13

You're not stupid...or broken. I have been there, too. I look up my rapist's family to see if they are posting things relevant to the case or if they are talking about me. Everyone knows who I am :/ Thank you, big mouths and media coverage...

I have also looked up my ex-husband and his now-wife that he cheated on me with a lot and I can totally relate to how are you feeling. I have to try really hard not to do that anymore. I am so sorry you are going through this. 

Thank you all for the kind words and understanding. I spent the day dwelling for the most part but am currently doing better. I feel like I've been distant to those around me lately and I'm not sure what to do about it. I hope this feeling passes as time moves forward. I want to start feeling happy again. I hope I can feel happy again.

Jaybird, I think in time you will find that you develop a new and better respect for yourself.  I am finding that through this process I am a stronger and better person