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Jaybird13

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    Hey everyone

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    17 hours ago, Struggling2017 said:

    First off I wanted to apologize for the incredibly nondescript/unhelpful bland name I have chosen but I sat there for like 30 minutes trying to figure out what to make my name when registering as to not be identifying and it was just really how I was feeling at the time, I only just got the courage to check back and post which may be ridiculous I don't know but I just feel it's time to not keep things to myself anymore and talk to people that understand how it feels and maybe get some healing out of it/help others.

    It's really nice to have a place to feel safe so I appreciate this place even if no one really knows me yet, so thank you all for having such a warm and welcoming and nice community for such a difficult and stressful topic, I have been browsing around seeing what the place is like and everyone just seems so supportive and it's honestly amazing.

    i am also a bit scared to accidentally overstep boundaries or post in the wrong place or something so I believe this is the correct place to post this and hope I have said nothing wrong in this introduction but I just really am glad to have found a place of support and look forward to getting some stuff out/learning/helping anyone I can as well and just wanted to say Hey and I hope whoever is reading this if anyone does has a really amazing day and if it's not going great for you I hope it starts going well <3

    - Blake

    Welcome to AS! Everyone here is really helpful and very supportive. :notalone::aswelcomesu:

    Hello AS

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    2 hours ago, MJbubbles said:

    Hi 

    I've joined as because I am going through a very rough time due to an event that took place several months ago. 

    I can't help but feel alone despite when i'm surrounded by friends and family, therefore I wanted to find a place which would allow me to speak to others openly and to hopefully at some point in the future, be able to offer support to others going through something similar.

    I'm off to explore the site a bit more and maybe speak to some of you soon?

    Thanks, MJ.

    Welcome to AS! This is a wonderful safe place to find answers to questions and support. :notalone::supportu::aswelcomesu:

    Breaking the silence

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    I'm sorry for what happened. You were drunk and possibly passed out at the time this occurred so you could not give consent. No one had a right to touch you in that state. Many people seem to put the blame on the victim when they have been drinking and it isn't right. The blame falls on the person who took advantage of the situation and your vulnerability. I hope your boyfriend is just in shock and realizes you couldn't have consented and it wasn't your fault. If he cannot see that than I believe you are better off without him. Try to stay strong and know that we are here to support you. Welcome to AS! :notalone::supportu::youcanheal:

    Hello

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    Hello Mentaldragonflies, welcome to AS. You will find support here. I also tried dealing with what happened to me alone for years before realizing I need support. I wish you luck on your healing journey. :supportu::youcanheal:

    First Post

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    Hello and Welcome,

    I am pretty new here too but this is a great place to begin healing. I am happy you found yourself here and hope you find everything as useful as I am finding it. Everyone is supportive, they have great advice, and they are always willing to listen when you need it. I am sorry for what happened to you, but I hope you will find your inspiration here. Good luck in your journey! :hi::notalone:

    Hard Times

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    Thank you everyone again, and thank you for the resources nycgirl. I am currently not seeing a therapist but have been seriously considering it. Tonight was another rough night and each day that goes by makes me think about it more and more. I had never even thought i might have ptsd until i came here, my fiance is supportive and the fist to mention therapy when i told him about what happened seven years ago. At the time i was having violent nightmares that would wake him (this was when i decided i had to tell him) i was horrified at the thought and assumed they would validate my fear that it was all my fault. The nightmares appear to be back and the fear and flashbacks are taking over my life. This forum has made see the benefits of seeing someone and working through it. I am happy that my fiance and i have been talking about it more and more and i told him something today that I was sure I would never say aloud. As good as it felt to get out, it caused me to have a complete break down shortly after. Not doing so good at the moment but i know I took a huge step forward today. I shared one whole event with him in complete detail that i have always felt so ashamed of, and he held me and comforted me the best he could. I am lucky to have him.

    Hard Times

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    Thank you everyone, I really appreciate the kind words, I've been trying to get used to posting and it does feel good to get it out even if in small bursts, but I'm not sure if I feel better or worse. The memories are terrifying and trying to sort through it in my mind is suffocating. I've noticed I have been angry for the past few months and my daughter (who is 4) told me today that I need to be nice to her dad (my fiance who is my rock) because, according to her, all i do is yell at him. It was heartbreaking and left me in shock and i'm still upset about because for the past year i have been having random outbursts of anger and depression. I had also been triggering myself and trying to convince myself nothing actually happened... i don't know I'm a complete mess and i feel nothing I do is healthy for myself or my family... i've even had thoughts of leaving my family... who thinks about that? I'm sorry this was much longer than it was supposed to be. Thank you for reading...

    Hard Times

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    Hello,

    I am having a hard time posting anything, even just a post to introduce myself, I have only told one person of my past and what happened. I am 26 years old, I have a beautiful daughter and a fiance who is very supportive and he is the only person I have talked to about what happened (I told him it happened but never gave too much detail). I was triggered really bad recently and am having a hard time with life in general it feels. I have decided to take a step forward and find support and have been perusing the forum and feel the people here can actually understand how I feel and not judge me... which is something I really need right now. I have kept this mostly to myself for 8 years and never really tried to heal properly or find any kind of help so I am very proud of myself right now. I am not quite ready to tell my story as I can barely type this without crying but I want to thank you all for giving me a place where I can feel safe and get out what has been pent up inside me for so long. Thank you and I look forward to healing together. :unsure:

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