Ems

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  1. I'm Back

    Wow I have not been here in a while, I was here a while back and found this place really helpful so I am back. Im Emily, I'm 25, I'm from New Zealand and I am going through a bit of hell at the moment to be honest. I have been abused by the same man (and others but he is the main person) since I was a very young child. The last time he raped me was about three weeks ago. I am so embarrassed and ashamed to say that out loud, i mean for goodness sake i am 25 and I still am terrified of him. I fight back but he is stronger than me, he has broken all my ribs down my left side before and now I am scared to fight in case it gets like that again. I feel disgusting. He is a friend of my dads and lived with us when I was growing up and ever since I left home he has tracked me down and found me. It's a small city but I cant afford to move right now. I was drinking everyday to numb it all but I went to rehab and i am now just about 6 months sober. It's good to be sober, but I am still trying to figure out how to live with all of this in my head without wanting to just get drunk. I have been in and out of hospital and diagnosed with bi polar disorder for the last two years and that has been rough. I guess I am going on a bit here so i will stop. Thanks for having this place, its sad to know im not alone but good at the same time if you know what i mean. Emily
  2. Just Saying Hi

    welcome to AS, hope you find the support you need here, Em
  3. Introducing Myself...

    welcome to AS, Em
  4. Hi

    welcome to AS! Em
  5. Hi I'm New

    hey, hope you find the support you need here, welcome, Em
  6. Hi, I Am New

    Welcome to AS, hope you find the support you need here, Em
  7. Hello

    welcome to AS, I hope you find some good support here, Im sorry you have to ber here but glad to meet you. Em
  8. Hi I'm New....

    Welcome to AS! Everyone has answered the questions so I just wanted to say hello! Em
  9. Hi.

    Hi there, Sorry you have to be here, but hope this is a safe haven for you, nice to meet you, Em
  10. Hello

    Wow thank you everyone for your warm welcomes! I cant wait to get to know everyone! Love Emily
  11. Hello

    Hi Everyone, My name is Emily, I am 20 years old. I live in New Zealand and I am new to this group. I have been struggling a little bit lately, and thought maybe some extra support from people who understand might help. Things are still pretty fresh, I was sexually abused by the same man from age 11 untill just a few months ago. I couldn't tell anybody, and those that I did, told me not to tell anyone else. Which I feel kinda stupid about. I am not really sure what else to say, I lose my words a lot these days. But thanks for being here and it is nice to meet you all. Emily