thank you courtney, i will check out the legality; the forums related to it. memories of this summer have me reeling, i just wish for Eternal Sunshine & a Spotless Mind. that film made it very evident that if we did not endure the pain we have been experiencing, in he recent past or just past in general, and the cliche stands we wouldn't be the people we are today, without those experiences but, how do we know we wouldn't have been better off never having been raped, or taken advantage of, or emotionally abused. i dont see much but my mental instability as my body&brain's response to said abuse. bipolar / borderline personality, or both? who gives a shlt? it's just another way to marginalize my pain, put me in a slot, where the EXCEPTIONS go. you know, ones that you refuse to listen to, then you refute their story's credibility, based upon your assumption that, this person MUST be an elaborate liar! i welcome them all to throw their stones, but do not forget, they are behind a castle of glass, they do sometimes wake in the morning, and have a delusion of freedom.