Hello mrawr, I'm so sorry for what has happened to you. I hope by the time you read this you are feeling a little bit better. Yes, the healing process can sometimes be excruciatingly long!! My attack was a little over two years ago, and there are still things that completely throw me off track. But, there is no set date on "when it will end". There will be days that you are triggered less than others and you will find coping mechanisms that work better than others, but chances are that you will always be dealing with what happened to you. That's how I am. I don't forget what happened, but ever