It's unfortunate, the things that brought you here, but welcome to AS. You are definetly not alone, and are very brave for coming to this site and writing your first post. It's okay if you can't or don't want to share things yet, not everyone can do so right away and that's perfectly okay. Whenever you are ready, or want to talk about anything, AS is a wonderful place full of wonderful and supportive people. Don't be afraid that you will be judged, because everyone here is helpful and supportive. If you need anything, or need someone to talk to, feel free to message me. Don't feel pressured a