I love pilates... wish I were addicted to it though. First of all, welcome to AS. This place has been a huge role in my online experience. I truly hope you can find a little bit of peace here... or just the ability to exhale once in a while.
I am touched by your feedback about my story. I definitely feel for you... your words reach me. It's insane to wake up to a world where co-workers rape you, people betray you or let you down - some make rape ok or right - and then there is the judicial process. If you ever want to talk, I am here. I wish you rest and peace of mind in the weeks to come.
Remember, when you are in those meetings with DAs and detectives, etc. or around people that hurt your heart, close your eyes and remember your purpose, your voice, your intetnion, your cause, your heart. Some people just aren't right in this world... some people are backwards. It is sad and disheartening, but what can you do? You, however, will have the right answers at each step... and it is best you listen to yourself. You will know what to do. Tune the world out as much as you can and look within. It gets overwhelming and hectic, but you can do this. There is no judgment here... (or anywhere that would matter) this is your life and only you know what is best.
I hope you are being kind to you, as this world can be cruel. A really great book is "Recovering From Rape" by Linda E. Ledray, R.N., PH. D. It was my bible during that time.
Anyways, sending you some love and support... and a big, fat welcome.