blessings to you i am also very new here, my first post in fact, but i wanted my first post to be reaching out to someone else and telling them - you are not alone - because it is exactly why i came here. i have heard from many others that it gets better, it gets easier, the pain will transform into a strength, and i believe it for us both and for all of us. i support and honor you for taking steps toward your healing! good for you! i'm cheering you on!