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  1. I'm not afraid to take a stand

  2. darkness swallowing me whole, drowning me, taking over.... completing me.

  3. vakry


    Sorry you're feeling a bit displaced. I understand how you feel perfectly. There are younger members floating around if you are more comfortable around your own age. That is perfectly understandable. However, don't discount the older folks completely. I've found a kinship with members twice my own age. I'm 26 if you're curious. There are those older that have experiences similar to mine or cope the same way I have or still do. So, age really doesn't matter much to me. Everyone that I've come across here at AS has helped me. I hope you find some people you can connect with that would make you f
  4. vakry


    Welcome! Take some time getting to know people around here. Read some posts. Learn about people. Discover you are not alone and don't have to go through it alone.
  5. Welcome Kat! Welcome Chlo! It can be a bit scary, but I hope in time you will discover the wonderful people here and feel safe and supported as I do here.
  6. I am a survivor

    1. chloeann11


      Yay Vak, I support you :)

  7. hating myself atm....

  8. And darkness falls.....

  9. vakry

    I Hate Me Right Now

    Oh and before the pen I was playing with a lighter too. He's a pyro as well so.... I told someone not him or anyone I've fucked.. I forget what exactly.... something about my drinking... not that I was just that I am an alcoholic and slipping... this was before all the above. And of course they aren't so they don't get it, but told me to try to keep it to a minimal. It is rare I can stop at one! And if I do stop at one it causes the urge to start drinking again.... yeah I can curve it maybe to one that night, but the rest of the next day... and so on I think about it. I want it. I crave it. So
  10. :blush: :blush: :blush: :blush: :blush: :blush: :blush: :blush: :blush: :blush: :blush: :blush: :blush: :blush: :blush: :blush: :blush: :blush: I drank. I smoked. I sucked a friend off, he returned the favor. I really appreciate that especially since he's straight. And now I have to wear long sleeves. I never had to wear long sleeves before other than weather. I defiled my arm with an ink pen. My friend watched me do this. he's a bit of a sociopath and hurting myself kind of turns me on too. My day is complete.
  11. vakry


    I'm sorry.... (((Field))) So so sorrry.
  12. vakry


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  13. vakry

    I'm Incredibly Gay!

    Thanks, Guy I needed that. Really needed that.
  14. Happy Birthday

    1. chloeann11


      Awww Vak, ty so much :)

  15. God, help me please.

  16. remembering............................................................................................................. when darkness falls........................................

  17. Hello! Welcome! I like your handle. I saw this post on FB once that said "Anxiety, Depression [and list of others] doesn't make you weak, it just means you have been strong too long." I don't know where you come up with your name, but that post helped me a lot and still does. When I get panicky or get in those crying spells I feel like I'm weak, so I sometimes need something to remind me why I'm that way and to help me get through it. After Silence has helped find other tools that help me in a lot of different ways. I found people here who understand me and don't judge me. I feel like I'm less
  18. Haha! Yeah I know that's not a news flash. lol. But I was re-reading some things I posted and jeez... I burst in the flame! lol! That's got to be annoying. It's hilarious to me seeing that.
  19. Generally a teenager could handle her own treatment and check herself for lumps. If she did not know how to do that a doctor or a parent would demonstrate/explain it or maybe do it the first time, but repetitively is concerning. But my family is a little odd too. My sister thought she felt a lump and asked my mom to feel (she's 23) for a second opinion. And my mom only felt the area thought to have a lump. Turns out it was nothing. My mom is a breast cancer survivor. So, it is a concern. Understandable. My family is weirdly comfortable with nudity and each other so.. me being in the same room
  20. crying

    1. chant2012


      Sitting with you and caring. Safe *hugs* ♥

    2. Kiralyna


      I'm also crying...

  21. hugs lots of them

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