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Everything posted by BrightEyes19

  1. I won't be sad or angry anymore. No more self pity or wondering "why me?" Because.it wasn't just me. It happened to all of us and will continue to. I am determined to make something positive out.of this. I will make a difference. For me, for my baby, and for women of the future.
  2. I understand how u feel. Had a very similar experience, and also have a small child. Your not alone. If u need someone to talk to feel free to message me! Hope AS is everything u need it to be.
  3. Hi I'm Bright! (: welcome to AS (: I hope its as helpful to you as it was your friend!
  4. Dear rapist. I hate what you did. I hate that I didn't see it.coming.. I hate that it was obvious you were nervous and I was probably your first. I hate how ur nasty unknown body was on me and that you couldn't even look me in the eye. Or my face for that matter. I hate how fucking scared I was of that probably stolen gun to later realise that there most likely wasn't even a fucking clip in it let alone bullets. I could have walked away instead of trying to make sure u didn't kill me. I hope ur mom finds out so u can see her cry about.her freak for a son like I had to see my mom cry for what w
  5. No you didn't offend me at all! I'm very happy you posted! Your right. If I change who I am I'm letting him take me from myself... everything you said was very truthful. Thank you (:
  6. You can always message me if you need. Just remember no matter what happens, you can get through. Safe hugs
  7. BrightEyes19


    Its kind of depressing to think that I'll never get over it. That I have to learn to live with it. That no matter what I won't ever be able to forget. Why do things like this happen? Why are people so sick and selfish? I use to think so highly of the world and people in it! I use to pity people. Now when a stranger walks by I get my keys out and brace myself for the potential harm they're gonna do to me and the fight I'm gonna put up this time. That's not who I am or how I think. I'm the type to smile at strangers and wish them a great day. But for what? Politeness got me raped. Politeness got
  8. I think its normal. I feel the same way. I do the same stuff. I check where my hubby is every minute he isn't right by my side... im sort of numb to what happened to me but I think its to try and avoid dealing with it. I don't want it to control me so I act like it didn't happen. People deal with this differently and have different things to confront. Welcome to AS. I hope this site is helpful to u.
  9. Had my first nightmare last night....I think.it was because I saw a man who sort of looked like him. I don't remember the details of the dream I just know it freaked me out and it was about that..seems like things are getting worse everyday instead of better.
  10. I know how id want what id say to make him feel...but I still do.t know what the words would be?
  11. it seems im using this blog as more of a diary.. im not really sure what your suppose to use a blog for but i guess public diary works. After i was raped the security gaurd at the Holiday Inn had told me he had seen my rapist walking around for hours before all over the place. His negligence infuriates me. You dont think to say something like "sure are you having trouble finding your room?" "do you need help?" that would be the ideal thing to do wouldnt it? especially since that was his job! Get rid of people walking the halls for no obvious reason... Guess not. where i was raped was about
  12. Everyday. I think about it everyday. Most of the time I'm angry. I don't think I've ever had this kind of deep anger before. I can feel it boiling in the pit of my stomach. I can feel my heart trying to pounce out of my chest. I try to stay strong. I try to keep calm but its so fucking hard!! I shouldn't have to feel this way! I shouldn't be this angry ! But I am. And the fact that this will never be erased from my mind makes me angrier. I had other things to worry about. Now I have to think about this bullshit and it isn't fucking right. I want him to suffer like he has made me. I want reven
  13. Before this happened, i never really thought of myself as a feminist. My mom has always been a big one. I never saw the big deal though. Its not like we arent aloud to work, and i thought there was always justice for when bad things happen to us. I never really experienced the sexism for myself so i didnt understand the whole feminist movement. But then again, i hadnt lived enough life to really notice the differences in treatment i guess. After all i am only 19. But after being raped, after doing everything i thought i was suppose to to get justice for myself and seeing that theres no fu
  14. This is kind of hard to do because im not sure where to start... Theres so many beginnings that i could use once i actually think about it. My mom got a job out of country so she wanted to make a few pit stops to see family that lives across the country. This was a little under a month ago. It worked out because my great grandmothers 96th birthday party was that weekend. We went. My second day away from home we stayed at a Holiday inn. My cousin wanted to stay in our room. the two of us went outside to have a cig and my mother an child stayed in the room. We were out there maybe three mi
  15. Hi (: My names Brighton, i am 19. Stay at home mom. All of this,not just being on AS but why i am on here happened this month. Im not sure what im suppose to do, but i know i want to do everything possible to get past this. So i signed up (: also...how do i post a topic or do anything on here? :0
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