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Hey all,

I'm so exhausted. Have a Dr appointment Thurs. It's with a new specialist. I'm hopeful, but.... not really. I honestly don't know if they can even help or if the Drs can even fix whatever's wrong with just throwing another pill at it. Lol that doesn't sound hopeful at all.

Ttyl RR

Could use some hugs right now, if anyone has some to spare. 

Could use some hugs right now, if anyone has some to spare. 

worthless. 

Hi friends, sorry I disappeared for a few months, life got overwhelming,  but I am okay. I hope you are too. 

Feeling very overwhelmed

I've been up most of the night.

Feeling depressed

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Second session with my new T tonight and I'm so nervous. Pocket riders welcome! 

Support is always available at AfterSilence all you ever need do is log on! And if words can not be found, try an emoji

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Flashbacks tonight, being a survivor is so lonely

I feel like I don't want to be part of this terrible world anymore.

I can't sleep and need a hug.

Pocket riders please?

Today is my first physical therapy appointment since covid hit. I'm off the charts nervous to be at the hospital. But I need this evaluation. I'm weak and shakey and exhausted. But at least the physical therapist will see me as I am not just at my best. I'm immune compromised, and nervous as hell, so I just called the lady at the info desk at the hospital. She said that as soon as she got off the phone with me she was going to go wipe down the wheelchairs that are near the front desk. Didn't make me feel like an idiot for being so nervous. So thank you awesome info desk attendant! So so much.

I'm so anxious about this whole thing I have a stomachache. Normally I'm a people person, so this level of anxiety feels crazy to me. I feel like I'm losing my mind or I'm germaphobic (I'm not) or agoraphobic (I'm not) or something.

RR

I need a hug. 

Struggling hard. So sorry. I may continue to be scarce until after this weekend when the 5th anniversary is. Love you all so much. Truly. 

I'm officially back! Sending out loads of hugs 

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We miss you Wishes 

Please pocket ride with me - its going to be a difficult morning  and I could use AS members support 🧡 B

Feeling so alone...

Today is the first anniversary of my father's death.  We had a difficult relationship at times, but he was a good person, and helped me become the person I am today. He was a firm believer in justice, the value of our shared humanity, and kindness --especially to children and animals. I miss him, and the world he believed in and tried to bring about.

In case anyone is wondering where I am im somewhere amungst all of these books.     📗 📓  📚  📖 📑 📘 📚 📖    📚 📕📗 📓  📚  📖 📑   📘 📚 📖     📚  📖 📑   📘 📚 📖   📕 📚 📕

After all this time, just now starting to feel anger... not sure what to do with that.

Feeling a little lonely tonight.