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hey anyone know how much a person can take before they actually snap. I think I might have, I just don't care about anything anymore. I think my heart has finally broken big time. sorry think i should go to bed and sleep this off.

Thanks

Thanks for listening. It is so hard sometime. 

I am glad to hear that it helped you. sorry I didn't get back to you sooner just not having a good time right now. way too much going on. I have been seeing my therapist more lately and I just don't think he gets it, How can he, he wasn't/isn't there.

Yeah I usually decorate for Halloween and enjoy seeing the kids dressed up and handing out candy to them. It makes me smile. I just don't think I have the strength or energy this year for it.

It just doesn't seem to stop coming, it has been a really rough 2 months and to top it off the anniversary of my abuse is coming up.

Yeah I am in a safe place. I am doing my breathing and just got back from a walk to try and clear my head. I just wish it would shut off and leave me alone.

Thanks. not even sure where to start. Just that I am losing it and I don't think my therapist gets how bad it is.

thanks limbodante. and the cookies are great.

thanks MeBeMary

thank you snmls. I feel like I am barely hanging on lately, so much going on.

Feel so stupid and angry with myself tonight. Too trusting, want so bad to be loved by them that I don't listen to my own feelings, what is wrong with me. I want so much to be normal. I don't want the nightmares, the panic attacks, to see T, to take anti-depressants, to want to cut, to apologize for my family. I want a normal life where my childhood was wonderful and my adult life is great. So sick of pretending everything is o.k. it isn't. why is there so much pain and why won't it go away? Is it too much to ask.

Thanks. Just feels like you start feeling a little normal then wham life knocks you down