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  1. Feeling alone. bad night. need someone to sit with me tonight.

    1. limbodante


      *sits with and shares cookies*

    2. atherton


      thanks limbodante. and the cookies are great.

    3. Free2Fly


      *sits and asks if he can have a cookie?*

  2. having a very hard time tonight. it is so hard going by my mothers house, knowing my sister and nephews are there and yet I am not allowed there as I am dead to her. hurting really bad, want to stop my car outside go to the door and see her. yet I can't, she hurt my children and I can't hurt them by seeing her. I wish I didn't care so much. I just want the pain to go away.

    1. MeBeMary


      I'm sorry for the pain and sadness you are feeling. :hug: if ok.

    2. atherton


      thanks MeBeMary

  3. Feeling angry tonight and alone

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    2. atherton


      Feel so stupid and angry with myself tonight. Too trusting, want so bad to be loved by them that I don't listen to my own feelings, what is wrong with me. I want so much to be normal. I don't want the nightmares, the panic attacks, to see T, to take anti-depressants, to want to cut, to apologize for my family. I want a normal life where my childhood was wonderful and my adult life is great. So sick of pretending everything is o.k. it isn't. why is there so much pain and why won't it go away? Is it too much to ask.

    3. snmls


      There is nothing wrong with you atherton.  I want to be normal too. I wish I had more advice to give you, but I'm struggling with many of the same things.  Just know that you're not alone. 

    4. atherton


      thank you snmls. I feel like I am barely hanging on lately, so much going on.

  4. Hey

    Welcome noaa.
  5. Why did you hurt me
  6. I am sorry you are going through all of this. Sitting with you if o.k.
  7. I have felt that as well and am glad I didn't. gentle hugs if o.k.