Sometime's I have to remind myself who i am. i am Kirsty.. A 20 year old young woman with a whole life a head of her. I am a hard working individual with potential to do anything i want to do. I have a small but trustworthy support network. There are certain people who aren't around at the moment, but I can feel their warm & precious presence blowing through wind, shining from the stairs and being pumped from my heart like blood through my veins. I am a brave individual, an almost survivor. But most of all I am a broken woman. My heart has been broken into hundreds of pieces, my world has been broken into fear and anxiety, my life has been broken into three pieces. One piece is a happy, outgoing person. The other piece is a scared girl, almost child like fears. The other piece has been lost. And since Monday 1st April 2013, i can't seem to find the third piece. It's missing. Sometimes I wonder if I will ever find that missing piece. It's almost like an incomplete jigsaw puzzle; with one bit missing, it will not look the same. So what am I supposed to do today? Perhaps I should start with waking up in the morning. Yes, that's probably a positive start. Then maybe I should do what i'm supposed to do; wash the dishes, feed the dog, eat my breakfast & drink my juice. Then I should get ready for work & attend. Then what am I supposed to do? Do I just try & think positive thoughts or do I remember the painful memories? Do I laugh or do I cry? Do I call a friend round, or shall I sit on my own in the dark? Am I supposed to call for help or try & figure all this out on my own. I guess these are just questions that I have to answer myself.. However, how am I supposed to answer them when I do not know. So today. Today will bring the same day that I have every single day. Today will bring unanswered questions that I just can't seem to work out.