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kay25

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    This Is Hard.

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    i am so glad you found AS. it is so comforting knowing that whatever i am feeling there are people who are understand and who have experienced or are experiencing similar things. i hope you find what you are looking for! this path to healing we are on is difficult, but try and remember to be gentle with yourself on your journey :) lots of hugs and positivity.

    I'm Here Because I Need To Tell What Happened

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    my heart breaks for you. so glad you found AS - we may all have different stories, but we are united in that we break the silence and are on the path to healing. we all have our own path and journey - be gentle with yourself. you are brave, you are beautiful inside and out, and you are strong....even when you feel like the world doesn't make sense. you deserve happiness. sending you hugs and positive thoughts!

    Hi :)

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    i just wanted to say hi and introduce myself...

    i was raped (that word scares me) on new years 2011/12 - a little over a year ago. i went for months in denial, and engaged in self-destructive behaviors to prove i was "in control". i can't remember when my methods of coping started to fail and when i realized that i was very far from being in control, but that realization was a heavy one.

    i lived in silence for over a year (family, friends, and anyone in my life permanently still have no idea), but then a weekly support group recently started in my area - i have found this to be the best and worst thing of my life. i was doing ok in denial - i was getting through at least. but now that i am talking about what happened, i have to face all those feelings i stuffed down for all those months and it sometimes is hard to breathe. i think about it and him more now, and the flashbacks and nightmares are worse. some days are not awful, but most days it is in the back of my mind - i hear his words or smell him or see his face or whatever. i try not to let his voice become mine, but sometimes that dark place takes a hold of me. i don't want that for myself, so i am so glad i found a community like this that i can turn to 24/7. i wish this community didn't have to exist, but i am thankful to know i am not alone. i wish you all peace and healing on your journeys :)

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