i just wanted to say hi and introduce myself... i was raped (that word scares me) on new years 2011/12 - a little over a year ago. i went for months in denial, and engaged in self-destructive behaviors to prove i was "in control". i can't remember when my methods of coping started to fail and when i realized that i was very far from being in control, but that realization was a heavy one. i lived in silence for over a year (family, friends, and anyone in my life permanently still have no idea), but then a weekly support group recently started in my area - i have found this to be the best an