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Going to ER not good day

I dont belong here there or any where 

Im done just plain done tired of always wasting my damn time I know my place and thats all that matters nothing but a piece of garbage 

Too sick for surgery. This sucks

Going in for a job interview- could use all the luck you can give. This job change can really change things for me. 

Going in for a job interview- could use all the luck you can give. This job change can really change things for me. 

I just found out that I might have Crohn's disease. On top of my other health issues. I'm not sure that I'm mentally ready for this stuff anymore. I'm mentally breaking down. Can not take anymore being kicked down and ripped apart 

I did it back to feeling really shitty again did it to myself with no ones help I can never do it right just a mess up and always will be 

So much going on Im shutting down need help but cant seem to ask anyone 

I'm not sure. I'm just finding my way around here. I'm  a little lost.. Not sure what I am  suppose too  be doing. After Silence is very  new to me. I'm not sure if I should be saying this or not. Help 

I'm not sure. I'm just finding my way around here. I'm  a little lost.. Not sure what I am  suppose too  be doing. After Silence is very  new to me. I'm not sure if I should be saying this or not. Help 

I'm not sure. I'm just finding my way around here. I'm  a little lost.. Not sure what I am  suppose too  be doing. After Silence is very  new to me. I'm not sure if I should be saying this or not. Help 

I want to give up I cant do it 

I feel like I won't ever be unconditionally loved or find the love of my life. I am only 21, but it just seems so daunting. Everyone I've been close to I've either put a wall up or it's tragically fallen apart. I don't think I'll ever be able to let anyone love me or me love them. 

I feel like I won't ever be unconditionally loved or find the love of my life. I am only 21, but it just seems so daunting. Everyone I've been close to I've either put a wall up or it's tragically fallen apart. I don't think I'll ever be able to let anyone love me or me love them. 

just what I thought I dont matter 

Dear Lord, I am tried today with no hope.

just done done done with everything

Tired of it all not sleeping,  nonstop flashbacks. feeling of no self worth,  feeling like people say Im important but I am not, tired of light 

Just want to give up. So much going on in my personal life. Feel overloaded, not sure I can see a way out of my feeling. Some much sadness.

I totally give up Im not important why do I even bother anymore

I remembered why I don't go out anywhere. It's because I don't fit in anywhere. Even with people I call family. It's hard to be home alone all the time, but it is much worse to be alone when you are actually with other people. Then you are trapped feeling like you are inconvenient and a nothing, which is how I feel tonight.  

Im such a in sensitive person I should leave AS and never return 

Seeing a new therapist today. Little nervous. 

Sorry I haven't been around in a bit, been having some migraines, just trying to get rid of them. Safe hugs to all!