Stef,
I am so glad you have the support of your boyfriend, and that you've found us here. I think it would be very helpful to you to work with a therapist. Once you find a person you are comfortable with, you will have a completely confidential and judgement free arena to work through this in. A good therapist will let you decide how much you share and when, will ask you reflective questions to help you work through your own feelings, and will provide you with strategies and exercises to further your healing. Also, consider calling a survivor's hotline, such as RAINN (Rape Abuse and Incest