BethMarie

Can I just say, this is hard...This life is hard, quite often it's too hard, but then I've learned to be patient and maybe in a day or two, or a week or two, or a month or two, it will ease up enough so I can breathe, or maybe sleep, or maybe hope. You know for me I just can't look at things overall, I can't think about the "big picture", it's too depressing, it's too sad, it's too hopeless. But I can look at today, I try to find the positive in today, I try not to expect the worse for tomorrow, I guess that's how I cope. It's taken me a long time to get to this point, you know I used to get s

Hi John, I'm new too. It's kind of scary, you know to try and open up to people that you don't really know, but I really think you've found a good place to talk. There are so many people on this site, and there experiences are so diverse that you can learn a lot, and benefit from other people sharing their journey with you. Take a deep breath, and write whatever you need to, I'll bet the more you share the more you get back. good luck....

Hey Tess, Please be patient, sometimes minutes feel like hours, but it will pass. I think you made a big step when you decided to post here. If you feel like you need to talk I'm okay to listen. It sounds like your at the end of your rope, but this will pass. I've been there so many times, I know it's hard to be patient but try to. I think this forum might really be a good way to heal. Be patient and share your thoughts in this safe place....

I feel the same way. for me trying to communicate on this site is almost forced, you know. I still have something in me that wants to get better. I've been in and out of hospitals, and I'm 45 yrs old now. I've been through therapists, medication, all kinds of things and still here I am. I think the thing is don't give up, you know, there's something in you telling you to reach out, and even if it's really uncomfortable try and reach out, maybe you can say to yourself, "I'll try to write something on this site once a week." Just small steps, you know it's hard to find anyone to talk to, but her

hi, and welcome. It's really hard sometime to reach out, I know. Almost to the detriment of myself. I just feel like I don't want to bother anyone. So coming here is a really good thing. The folks here want to be here and want to listen and want want to share whatever they can if it will help

thank you all for your welcome

It's been suprising to me, in that I'm an intelligent person and I've done my share, over the years, to find out as much as I could about my circumstance. Nothing ever really fit, you know to me and my stuff. It's so frustrating, and it just goes on year after year. I'm getting older now and I just don't know if I have it in me to get better. It's such a big question, it's a life question, do you go this way or that. I think finding out about complex ptsd is a step in the right direction. I'm curious enough not to give up yet. Good luck to all of us

I guess I'm trying to reach out. I'm 45 yrs old, in my lifetime i"ve been in and out of hospitals 2 or 3 different times. It started when I was about 24 yrs old, then again in a big way when I was about 35 or so. I'm not really sure of the dates. actually I've been in & out of probably 10 different hospitals, but I've always held a job and I've always taken care of myself, until the last 5 years or so, now I'm on disability, it's been rough, but everything's been rough so why should this be any different. I believe my diagnosis is complex ptsd, and I'm just starting to learn more about