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Didn't have a good morning at Church sunday as the serman was about peace, so I couldn;t stop the tears. poke with the preacher afterwards and he prayed with me. Had a really bad flshback that afternoon and I tried for a about twenty minutes but could not escape from it. I felt so trapped. Felt nervous at home after it so decided to go to the pictures and came back feeling very relaxed. Had a couple more since but not too bad. It is sometimes so difficult to get back to the present however hard I try, and I sometimes am afreid to go to sleep because you know they are going to start again. I h

Didn't have a good morning at Church sunday as the serman was about peace, so I couldn;t stop the tears. poke with the preacher afterwards and he prayed with me. Had a really bad flshback that afternoon and I tried for a about twenty minutes but could not escape from it. I felt so trapped. Felt nervous at home after it so decided to go to the pictures and came back feeling very relaxed. Had a couple more since but not too bad. It is sometimes so difficult to get back to the present however hard I try, and I sometimes am afreid to go to sleep because you know they are going to start again. I h

Didn't have a good morning at Church sunday as the serman was about peace, so I couldn;t stop the tears. poke with the preacher afterwards and he prayed with me. Had a really bad flshback that afternoon and I tried for a about twenty minutes but could not escape from it. I felt so trapped. Felt nervous at home after it so decided to go to the pictures and came back feeling very relaxed. Had a couple more since but not too bad. It is sometimes so difficult to get back to the present however hard I try, and I sometimes am afreid to go to sleep because you know they are going to start again. I h

Didn't have a good morning at Church sunday as the serman was about peace, so I couldn;t stop the tears. poke with the preacher afterwards and he prayed with me. Had a really bad flshback that afternoon and I tried for a about twenty minutes but could not escape from it. I felt so trapped. Felt nervous at home after it so decided to go to the pictures and came back feeling very relaxed. Had a couple more since but not too bad. It is sometimes so difficult to get back to the present however hard I try, and I sometimes am afreid to go to sleep because you know they are going to start again. I h

Didn't have a good morning at Church sunday as the serman was about peace, so I couldn;t stop the tears. poke with the preacher afterwards and he prayed with me. Had a really bad flshback that afternoon and I tried for a about twenty minutes but could not escape from it. I felt so trapped. Felt nervous at home after it so decided to go to the pictures and came back feeling very relaxed. Had a couple more since but not too bad. It is sometimes so difficult to get back to the present however hard I try, and I sometimes am afreid to go to sleep because you know they are going to start again. I h

Didn't have a good morning at Church sunday as the serman was about peace, so I couldn;t stop the tears. poke with the preacher afterwards and he prayed with me. Had a really bad flshback that afternoon and I tried for a about twenty minutes but could not escape from it. I felt so trapped. Felt nervous at home after it so decided to go to the pictures and came back feeling very relaxed. Had a couple more since but not too bad. It is sometimes so difficult to get back to the present however hard I try, and I sometimes am afreid to go to sleep because you know they are going to start again. I h

Had a couple of flashbacks during the night, but despite them being particularly intense i managed to get out of both of them quicker than usual and also recovered quickly. Consequently I had a pretty good sleep. Got a very painful and inflamed arm where i had my injection tuesday so may have to pop into the walk in centre later. I have been invited to a childrens party and to take my son and grandchildren this afternoon and feel more able to cope with a housefull of children. Thanks again for the support. Having a couple of good nights where i had managed to get back to the present quickly

Had a couple of flashbacks during the night, but despite them being particularly intense i managed to get out of both of them quicker than usual and also recovered quickly. Consequently I had a pretty good sleep. Got a very painful and inflamed arm where i had my injection tuesday so may have to pop into the walk in centre later. I have been invited to a childrens party and to take my son and grandchildren this afternoon and feel more able to cope with a housefull of children. Thanks again for the support.

The appointment went ok, very easy to talk to her and she had some other ideas about getting through the flashbacks. I have to keep a diary of when I have them and how bad they were and whether I was being successful getting myself back to the present and how, and I am seeing her next week. Had a good time swimming, depsite the numbness in the legs with the sciatica I managed to swim 10 lengths and then played with the grandchildren. Felt really tired when I got home and fell asleep.Slept for an hour before the flashbacks started. Had five in the next hour but managed to get back to the pres

Had about four hours sleep last night before they started so I am feeling brighter this morning,also although they woke me up five times,they were not as bad as they have been. Glad that I will be able to talk about it later,and afterwards we are taking the grandchildren swimming. I will try and get time there to swim a few lengths on my own, because then I am completely relaxed.Thanks for the support, it has really helped. Will let you know how its goes later.

Saw the doctor this afternoon and told him about the flashbacks. His response'' are you free in the morning' puzzled me until he said that they happened to have a councellor available if I wanted to talk to her. Couldn't believe my luck, as the people he had referred me to said it would be four or five weeks at the earliest. Really feel my prayers have been answered. he has also given me a couple of weeks off work, because I could not cope with everyone else's problems at the moment. Will let you know how things go. Thanks for the support

Glad to hear that last night was better. Also glad we can support you. you are not alone. Always here for ya. Found Only a couple of flashbacks again last night and only short, so much more able to cope with than they were. Thanks again for the support and hugs

Had a flashback earlier but managed to pull myself out of it quit quickly, so hopefully tonight will be no worst than last night. Saw the new nurswe today to have my pneumonia injection, and we talked about the flashbacks. She gave me an English url which is connected to the National Health service and you can connect up with your own GP, but will talk to my doctor about this when I see him tomorrow. I am hoping he will give me a couple more weeks off work, as I dont feel that I can cope with other peoples problems whilst I am still having the flashbacks. Thank you for your support-it is real

Hi and welcome to AS. I only joined last week and felt that for the first time in over sixty years that I had some support, from people who really understood how I felt. We are all here for each other. People have helped me so much already. Hugs

Hi everybody Had a much better night last, more sleep and fewer flashbacks, which were shorter and less intense,so feeling much more able to cope with the day ahead.All your support has really helped. It is the first time in over sixty years that I haven't had to face it on my own, and it has really helped me cope these last few days Many thanks and best wishes

Hi, many thanks for your reply, it is so good to be able to talk to someone who understands what you are going through. When I went to visit my sister overseas in may and june I realised that due to the sciatica I have had over the past year I had put on a lot of weight. Just before i went they had found out that a major cause of the pain was the fact that my right left is shorter than my left. They fitted a lift in my shoe and this enabled me to walk and swim every day. I was also careful about what i was eating and have managed to lose almost a stone so far. I was already on a low fat diet

I too have only recently joined, because I could not find the support I needed where I live. All the help lines were only opened for a limited time and never when I needed them either late at night of in the early hours. I know I need to talk to someone but four to five weeks seems like a lifetime, at the moment.

Thanks for all your messages, it helps to know that there are other people that understand what you are going through

Thought after counselling I had got through the trauma of the abuse which started sixty three years ago. Whilst visiting the nurse recently regarding my diabetes and my comfort eating, I was told that I would have stop in my condition. This has caused a return to flashbacks which are more intense and more frequent, because I am being told that I can no get the comfort from what I eat. This has really taken by surprise as I thought they were now a thing of the past, and I am feeling it really difficult to cope.I work in a situation where I support and counsel people in the same situation annd a