Everything posted by wiltedflower
I feel so overwhelmed. I don't know what to do. I feel like I should post my story, but I have tried and I can't physically do it. It is too much. I have tried to talk in chat, but I am overwhelmed and scared there too. I don't know what to do, or who to talk to. I'm sorry, maybe this is the wrong thing to do too. I'm sorry.
Thank you for the kind replies. I am just not sure if I can talk about my r* or my fears. I have posted in a few other places but it all more general things and not my raw emotions. I don't know if I can ever post or let someone hear me even try to speak of what happened. I have kept it bottled up for so long, I am not sure I can hear myself speak it, let alone all of you. I commend all of you for being able to step out into the light and open up, however I just feel like this dark place I have made for myself will forever be my home. Fear trumps everything I want or think I need. Maybe this is the way it is supposed to be for myself. I'm sorry again.
I have been here for about a week and looking around. I'm not sure what to say or post. I am terrified of someone knowing what has happened to me because if only I had not given up and fought harder, I could have stopped him. So for that I carry immense guilt and shame and blame myself. I am not even sure if I can do this and try to talk here. So, maybe I have wasted your time already. I'm sorry.