Breakable

Hi, and welcome! As much as I don't like to admit it, I am also a middle-aged female dealing with similar issues to yours. I've spent decades avoiding dealing with my abuse, and am now paying the price with PTSD, anxiety and depression. I've found this site to be so supportive and a wonderful resource, and hope you find it to be the same.

Thanks Breakable - and keep in touch about the writing. It's a tough field to break into and make a proper go of. I'll help you however I can. I will definitely do that! I really appreciate your advice and support. It's a scary step, one I'm not sure I'm ready for at this point, but I have to start at some point. It's nice to know there's someone I can bounce ideas off of.

Hi, Crystal! Welcome to AS...hope you find it as great as I have! I too am a huge music lover, and I love to write as well. Sometimes it's just about the only thing that helps me get through the day.

Hi, Cassandra! I feel like I can really relate to you...it's been almost a quarter of a century since the end of my torment, and I also have three young children that don't give me a moment's peace. I dream of being a writer and have started looking into freelancing a little, but I haven't had the courage or confidence yet to bid on a project. A friend of mine told me that I should write my autobiography and tell my story. I am SOOOOO not ready to think about the world reading that much about me at this point, but maybe someday. I hope you find the support you need on this site. I join

Hi, Cassandra! I feel like I can really relate to you...it's been almost a quarter of a century since the end of my torment, and I also have three young children that don't give me a moment's peace. I dream of being a writer and have started looking into freelancing a little, but I haven't had the courage or confidence yet to bid on a project. A friend of mine told me that I should write my autobiography and tell my story. I am SOOOOO not ready to think about the world reading that much about me at this point, but maybe someday. I hope you find the support you need on this site. I join

Hi, there! I also was abused in the middle of the night over the course of many years, and I still have sleep problems. I find it very hard to sleep when it is dark and finally fall into a deeper, more restful sleep when the sun starts to come up. I also still feel like someone is in my room watching me at times, which makes it even harder to sleep. I have found that Ambien is a pretty good sleep medicine, and it helps me fall asleep fast. It doesn't last all night long for me, though. I only really use it when it's been too many days of not sleeping and I need a better night's rest. I

Hi, Macie! I understand how scary it can be to talk...I'm pretty new, too, and just shared my story for the first time. I hope you find that this is a safe, supportive place and that you can share your story soon. We're here for you and we're ready to listen.

Hi! I'm new, too, and so far have found this site to be very welcoming and safe. I hope you find that here, too.

Ok, so after reading so many people's stories, and seeing how courageous and strong everyone here is, I'm going to write it all out in the Share Your Story forum. I appreciate your support and will welcome any thoughts.

Thank you all for the support. You are so kind. I'm getting more comfortable each time I come on and read your posts. It really helps.

Thanks, again, everyone for the warm welcome. I am feeling the love! lol Anyway, it's one of those nights where I can't sleep because I just can't shut off my brain and stop thinking about everything. All of these new memories are so disturbing, I'm finding it so hard to believe that things like this could have happened to me and I had no idea until now. I can't wrap my mind around the fact that I blocked so much out. And every time I have a new memory, it's so much worse than the one before. I'm afraid of what is still to come. How much worse could it get? I really should write it al

Thanks for the welcome everyone! So far this site seems very kind and supportive. I think I'll like it here! Talk to you all soon.

Hi, there! I just joined, too...sending hugs your way, hoping you find the support you need here and can make your way through the pain to trust and feel safe again. I hope in time, with lots of talking and support, that we can all get there.

Hi, Kennedy! I'm new also, and what happened to me ended over 20 years ago. I'm really hoping to connect with anyone with similar experiences to me, whether long in the past or much more recent. I hope it helps to know you're not the only one whose story took place a while ago. Whether it was yesterday, 7 years ago or 20, all too often it still feels like it's happening right now.

Hi, everyone! I'm new here, and have never participated in anything like this before. I'm a 41 year old mother of 3, and feel like I should have a better grip on my life by now. But about 6 months ago, I started having flashbacks, dreams and memories of abuse by my grandfather that I never was aware of before. I'm really struggling with why all of this is happening now, and feel like my life is falling apart. I'm really hoping to connect with other people who have experienced similar things as I have, so maybe I won't feel so alone and like I'm losing my mind.