blueWillow

I dont tell my husband about the site not because Im trying to be secretive but because its not really his business. He dosent ask what I do on the internet and I dont ask what he dose. shame is a powerful weapon and hopefully you can overcome it. I dont know you but I do know you deserve to feel worthy and happy. You deserve to feel free from the chains that hold you back. This site is a wonderful thing and you deserve to use it if you so choose to. Stay strong and hopeful! Hope is a stronger weapon than shame you just have to know how to use it.

I agree with the other poster you need to press chargers if for no other reason but to show your daughter she is worth it her pain matters and will not be ignored. As far as CPS as long as her dad and step mother took appropriate actions to protect her there isn't any reason they would remove her. Besides all that if you do report it the professionals will know exactly what do for her. I hope that her pain is eased in knowing how much you care for her.

Its been 12 years since i broke away from my living hell and I too just joined for the first time. I wasn't so much as scared as I felt undeserving. Undeserving of love, understanding or the right to speak after so long. I am one of the many that will tell you time does not heal all things but I wish that it would. This is a fantastic site and I hope you find it comforting. I think of it as a thick blanket that I have while sitting naked in a snow storm, its still freaking cold but at least i have this blanket. java script:add_smilie("","smid_8") Anyways welcome!

I haven't been here long but I can tell you this site is amazing. Ive never felt so understood hopefully you find the same comfort I have. java script:add_smilie("","smid_6")

Im taking the first steps of taking you advice. I just made my first therapy appoint im not sure with starting a new job if this is the best time but I cant seem to sake these memories and they are pulling me down and robbing my family of the happy mommy they deserve. Im scared to death and will be crossing my fingers that I actually step into her office. Ive made several no show appoints before so I know running is still a possibility for me I just hope that the universe sends the strength I need to follow through.

Im new here and hope this is the answer I have been seeking. I was abused daily for the first 12 years of my life and this year marks 12 years since I left. Its been 12 years I am a mother now and a wife. I work and go to school and I appear to hold it together well. Its been 12 years and every day I remember his face and I remember every thing I felt every time. My husband knows little and thinks its all forgotten but than wonders why in my sleep I am violent when he tries to touch me. Hes never known what it is to struggle but he thinks he had it rough and maybe he did and I am just desensit