What happened to you was NOT your fault. You didn’t know that when you started dating him he would turn out to be the man he was. You didn’t know about the drugs, you didn’t know about his temper, you thought he was good guy. I know that right now it seems like everything is your fault, for hanging out with him, for not leaving the relationship sooner, but you were scared and rightfully so. I’m not going to lie, it will take you a long time to feel even a little better then you do now but it does get better. You are a lot stronger then you think you are and you CAN pull through all of this. You will go on to school and make amazing friends that even though they don’t know it saved your life. They will help you just by being a friend that you can trust. Don’t close yourself off just because one person in your life hurt you. You will learn to love again. You are amazing, now you can smile without feeling guilty, so hold your head high and say he won’t control my life, only I can do that. Walk away from it all because you are better then what he made you and you won’t let him control your life. Love yourself, believe in yourself, and don’t forget you’re beautiful.