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  1. Kbcj4 welcome to after silence. Good for you for breaking the silence! I know it's hard and scary but it's better out than in. Just know that you will be ok. If there's anything I can do let me know. I'm usually online throughout the day. You are not alone here. Take care of yourself. Tracy
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    Hi Kim! Welcome to After Silence. I am sorry to hear that you have isolated yourself, but I am happy to hear that you are taking steps to get out of the isolation. We are here to help and support you on this tuff journey. I know I keep saying this to everyone, but you are not alone. Knowing that we are not alone in our journey to self healing is comforting. I am looking forward to getting to know you. Take care of yourself and welcome. Tracy
  3. Hi Ana and welcome to After Silence. Let me start off by saying that I truly understand where you are coming from when you say that your mind goes completely blank every time you tried to post something. I had the same problem and I am glad to see that you were finally able to post. I have not been a member for very long but have come to feel very comfortable and safe here (thanks to all the wonderful members and our A1, top of the line super administrators!). I think all of us have trust and opening up issues. We don't mind at all that you have looked around to see what After Silence is all about, that's one of the great things about this place. As for reading the other posts and being shocked at how many of us there really are out there who understand what is like to go down this painful road...it is shocking. Statistics are one thing but it is a complete different thing to be able to see and read other survivors stories. I am so sorry for what has happened in your life to bring you here. Know that you are not alone and you don't have to fight this alone. We are all here to listen and support you when ever you need it. There is no need to feel shame here. As for why shame is so powerful, ya got me on that one. I think that when bad things happen to us there are a couple of the things that we are programed to think, it was either our fault (which is not true at all), or "what is everyone going to think of me?"...but those are just my thoughts. I am glad to see that you are not suffering alone any more because that is the worst way to suffer. Know that this battle takes time. Our wonds are deep and require gentle love, understanding, support, and time. It is hard to be patient because we all want this to be over and done with. I am however, amazed that there is a three month waiting list for you to see that counselor...is there someone else you can see any sooner? I called yesterday to make an appt with a therapist that someone recommended to me and I was told the soonest I could get in was two weeks and this made me panic something fierce.:o Any how, I know I am going on and on so I'll just simply say that I am glad you found your way here and I hope you continue to post here. This is a wonderful place to share and vent. You are not alone. Take care of yourself and give yourself time to heal.***HUGS*** Tracy
  4. Hi Suzie, welcome to After Silence. This is a wonderful, supportive place to be. We are all glad you found us. :jump: Take care of yourself...if you need to talk let me know.
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    Amen! We are very important people...thanks for reminding us!:s:
  6. A million thanks to everyone that is keeping this group as safe as possible. It's sad what some people do to get their kicks. Thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you for keeping us safe, you all are true angels!:s:
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    Welcome, this is a wonderful place to be. There is so much support and understanding here. If you ever feel alone just come here...we are all walking the same path towards healing and you are not alone.
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    Hi Ami! Welcome!!! You will find that everyone here is very sweet and super supportive. If you ever need to talk I'm here a lot.
  9. ((((Nicholle))))I am always willing to chat if you want. I am new here and just getting use to how this all works (I'm not very computer smart).
  10. Thank you for reminding me that I'm not alone in this...it feels like it once in a while. I am so happy that I found this place. Reading some of the stories here reminds me that even though I have been through a lot in my life there are others that have gone through much more than I have and everyone here gives me strength and courage to go on. I am a survivor of childhood sexual abuse by a close friend of the family. My brain thought it best to protect me by locking these memories away until I was about 15 and ever since then I have horrible flashbacks that leave my totally drained and feeling dead to the world. I have a wonderful mother and husband that would welcome me to share my memories with them but I just can't bring myself to paint those pictures for them. Is this wrong? I don't want to tell my mother what happened to me because she blames herself for letting this happen and I can't tell my husband because...well I just can't. I welcome all thoughts on this...help is always needed. Again, thank you.
  11. I am new and just needing some help. I'm not very computer smart so I don't really know how to use this site. I just need someone to talk to who understands what I am going through right now. I have been having some fierce flash backs and really just need to vent. Please help. [Edited on 3-5-2004 by aquapit]
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