creakingmirror

So. Yeah. Here I am. I was abused when I was little. That's about all I know so far. Apparently I disassociated so hard the whole thing got repressed. I hate God, I hate my family, and sometimes I even hate my fiancee. I've NEVER physically lashed out at anyone, but my anger is really REALLY big, and I've got no direction for it. I was raised Christian, but I finally walked away from that some time ago. Still trying to find God. I'm an illustrator by trade, so there's an outlet for my crap, I guess. I don't know what to do, where to go or what to think. I'm in counseling, I've got an