patriciag

 5am and still wide awake

Tired and wish my brain would stop replaying what happened

Tired and wish my brain would stop replaying what happened

Today having a really rough time. Feel like its happening all over again. I hate my vivid brain. 

Man i am really, seriously sorry guys that I never seem to have enough time to get a comment in on everyone's post. I keep running out of time before i can hit the Aftermath board. Much love to all and I hope the night is going well.

I feel all I do on here is vent but that's what this site is all about trying to reach out for help but I don't know what else to do i have to schedule a few appointments an ob I have not gone in almost 2 years due to the attack and i am really scared i don't want anyone down there i am freaking out also i have to see a new therapist the other one that the government gave me was not working and i am just freaking out it doesn't help that i had a trigger going out in public for the first time alone how can i think that talking to a stranger about this will help sorry that this is all i do i just can't handle this alone soon will be the anniversary of that bad day i seem to be crying more get more panic attacks and im on here more hoping to talk to someone that has been stronger and gotten alot better i dont feel alone but i don't want to have to berdon my mom or my boyfriend even tho they are more than supportive and talk to me  but i feel like i am hurting them in the process i know my step dad cries when he thinks about it i dont want them to be sad anymore    

Hello everyone im new to this support im kinda scared of reaching out for advice and or help

Changed my profile picture, had this tattoo on my right shoulder about 5 years ago now

thought i would share a picture of me, it was taken at my 60 th birthday party

Can anyone see these posts? I feel stupid and invisible