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patriciag

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  1. I’m getting married in less then 2 weeks!!!! I’m marrying my best friend and I can’t fricken wait. 

    1. patriciag

      patriciag

      Congrats you deserve all the happiness 

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  2. Pocket riders needed for tomorrow.  Attending a family gathering and there will be in attendance some family members I do NOT wish to see.  

    Oh, and Lucy?  Pencil me in for Sunday, please!!!  

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    1. patriciag

      patriciag

      I am glad it's over with, now take some time for yourself :throb:

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  3. Hidden1 this may help you with some of terms we use on AS 

    forum/index.php?/topic/120093-abbreviations-comm

    And welcome to AS 

    1. patriciag

      patriciag

      I hope you were able to find it, I noticed the link didn't come up

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  4. Pocket riders needed for tomorrow.  Attending a family gathering and there will be in attendance some family members I do NOT wish to see.  

    Oh, and Lucy?  Pencil me in for Sunday, please!!!  

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  5. This spoke to me, today. :throb:

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  6. Making my father's cremation and burial at sea plans the last couple of days has been beyond hard. I wanted to help and asked to take this burden from my aunt. My father and other family lives in California and I am in Texas. I can't do much and I hate it. This aunt is his caregiver because of that. It was worse than I thought it would be. I have just been nauseated and sad. I know it's not SA-related although my father was abusive in every other way in my childhood. But I have tried to have a relationship in latter years and I do love him. It's bleeding into everything else. I feel like 36 is too young to lose a parent...and it hurts so much. 

  7. The holidays can be a difficult time for many of us. Struggles can amplify or be triggered so easily this time of year. :(

    That is why I'm grateful for @Capulet, as she had this great idea for us all to find a little extra support this year.  It's called "Buddies".  I've signed up and hope many of you will. Support and kindness for one another never grows old. I can't wait to meet my new buddy. :friends2:

    If you haven't seen the post, take a look here:

    http://www.aftersilence.org/forum/index.php?/topic/130624-extra-support-for-the-holidays-introducing-buddies/

     

    Thank you, Cap, for coming up with this idea. :thanks:

     

  8. The AS family showing my pictures on the home page, so nice :)

  9. Lost............. Where am I    Who am i

    1. patriciag

      patriciag

      You are right where you need to be at this time.

      You are mariella- you may feel like you are lost but you are stronger than you think. Most Importantly you are not alone. :throb:

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  10. Off to Israel!

    it was a really hard month. Without your support you on AS it would have been so much harder. 

     

  11. I am happy to announce I'm still alive despite how many times the world has tried to kill me.

  12. Hey Everyone. I haven’t been on here in a while. Not since some depressing times and death in my life and health issues. 

    1. patriciag

      patriciag

      Welcome back, sorry about your loss. I have been going through depression and health problems so I understand where you are coming from. 

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  13. Im back around again but Im starting to think it doesnt really matter 

  14. Im back around again but Im starting to think it doesnt really matter 

  15. Who the eff am I? Why do I exist?

    1. patriciag

      patriciag

      These are tough questions but more important stronger feeling.  I think we have all asked those questions. Sometimes we need to ask ourselves just one answer to the question.  For me it is being a mom. Why do I exist for me that is a hard one. I guess I could say I broke the pattern of abuse in my family. Last night I was texting my daughter who did her big adventure. During our text I told her how proud I am of her. Not for only this but her whole life, all she had done and become. She was a very difficult birth. In the end she came into this world in her own way, no Dr there, she landed on my legs. Last night it hit me, that I was the vessel for her birth, so I guess I can I exist for that, what better way to exist.  Sorry so long

      Safe :hug:hugs

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  16. i was innocent child he took my childhood away from me he hurt and now im trying to move on but it hard it not fair i never ad that childhood that most have i only can rember the bad things he did to me none of the good stuff
    people  dont understand when i say  i dont rember my  childhood  i cant   tell them  what  he  did  so i dont  rember  
    sorry

  17. I was asked to speak to future criminal justice professionals at the university (Texas A&M here in my town) that I graduated from. They want me to speak to them about victimization and what I have gone through, including the SANE process and reporting/trial. Today is the day. I readily agreed but now I am so nervous. I feel like the SANE nurse is another abuser and it's hard. But, I think it's important for these future CJ professionals to know what it's like to be a victim since they will be working with them. I have to do this. I want to beg them to be kind and compassionate with anyone they come into contact with....

    1. patriciag

      patriciag

      So proud of you Amy, you will do fine. I will be praying for you. You will never know how much this could impact women and men in the future. :throb:

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  18. Well my baby girl leaves tomorrow to climb Mt Everest base camp, she will be gone for a month.  One nervous mom here.

    1. patriciag

      patriciag

      Yes Ally she is my adventure child, she doesn't get it from her mother :lol:

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  19. Well my baby girl leaves tomorrow to climb Mt Everest base camp, she will be gone for a month.  One nervous mom here.

    1. patriciag

      patriciag

      Thanks she is 41 but you know as a mom they are always our baby. It didn't help when she dropped off her will today.

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  20. May trigger. 

     

     

    This time 3 years ago my littl baby nice was fighting. For her life it so unfair. 3 years ago friday at 745 pm she. Passed away I so dont want thia week to happeb. Like so unfair

  21. OMG, you're from such a beautiful part of the world. I've received the zoopla newsletter yesterday (a real estate newsletter that's telling everyone in the UK they can buy if they want to, which is just not true) and said newsletter told me I could buy an island for the price of the average 5-6 bedroom home in my area. It's Spectacle Island, Nova Scotia (Canada) the ad was for and I must admit I've fallen in love with the area you come from. Anyway I just wanted to say hi and thanks for all the work you do for AS.

    1. patriciag

      patriciag

      Thanks, I love living in Nova Scotia

  22. Help me

    1. patriciag

      patriciag

      I'm sorry you are hurting so bad. It is hard to see a way out at times, I know I have been feeling the same way. You aren't alone here.

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