Thank you for the welcome, I feel safe here. It took a long time for me to call it what it was.
As soon as my son graduates from high school I'm going to get divorced. I have 6 months and 8 days left.
As for now, the spousal unit sleeps in the bedroom alone. I stay on the couch, usually, I don't want to be behind closed doors again.
I finallly contacted the rape support group here where I live and will be going to counseling as soon as I can stomach the thought. My regular doctor has been wonderful and he undertands that I'm not in a position to just get divorced right now. That, in itself, is a long story.
A friend of mine just went through a 12-week survivors class. I'm going to do that too.